Response to "Reflection" by 5pf

Click here if you want to know the "dark" side of me... hehehe...

Brokeback Mountain

It is painful not being able to end up together with the one you love, but does that mean you will live happily everafter otherwise?

不要將愛化成了束縛的空殼

Wow, this is just inspiring. To continue with the tone, I am going to watch Brokeback Mountain.

Reflection

An uninvited female friend insisted to stay over night at my place for a few nights. Well, her excuse is she can't sleep alone while her flat mate is away.

For those who know me well, you can imagine how frustrated I could be. But, I am looking at the positive side of the incident. She is like a mirror to me and reminds me not to behave like her as it is extremely annoying. Here are the dont's:-

1. ask one who she/ he was just chatting with over the phone after she/ he hanged up
2. question whether one showered for the day (unless he is going to share your bed)
3. repeat yourself over and over again
4. assume you are invited when one is telling you his appointments for the day
5. disbelieve one can actually go to work whatever time he likes
6. comment about ones workload is too light (as you are in no position to judge unless you are working with him)
7. say someone looks like a size 40 who actually wears 38, especially when the person is in the process of slimming
8. talk too much of non-sence to a person in the first hour awake
9. use interrogative sentences too often
10. leave breathing space to your counterpart no matter he is a friend or a lover

before bed, i wanted to tell you this.

I have lost faith in ones who are closest to me. I don't even want to tell them the whole truth. It is not happiness at all if I am not able to share.

I feel lonely...　

buzz...

An unexpected phone call came just in time to conclude my home leave with a heart warming note. That's all I need.

I am writing along with YanZi live concert playing with my parents LCD Flat TV. Her voice is an indulgence as well as the lyrics. An indulgence to my "underwater".

Stepping out of the habit of living in the past, I am living in the present. My heart is light as feather, floating in the air.

Nothing exciting nor surprising happened tonight but a simple dinner, followed by a silly movie. Two friends sitting opposite to each other, chatting and laughing about nitti grittis in life, teasing one another, sharing big visions of future, eating, smoking and zipping tea together. No rush, no hush, no well laid plan. Everything just went along the way. It was an early night, just right to catch the last train home. At the platform, we hugged goodbye as usual.


Only when we bidded adieu, I felt a slight bit of hollow.


Well, the comfort is, by preserving the relationship with all my heart, it is going to last forever as I wish.

J

I thought I am going to complete one of my two missions in Taiwan... but, no I didn't. Well, but at least I am getting close.

All I ask of you...

RAOUL: No more talk of darkness, Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -my words will warm and calm you.
Let me beyour freedom, let daylight dry - your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE: Say you love me every waking moment, turn my head with talk of summer time . . Say you need me with you, now and always . . .promise me that allyou say is true -that's all I ask of you . . .

RAOUL: Let me be your shelter, let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you your fears are far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE: All I want is freedom, a world with no more night . . .and you always beside me to hold me and to hide me . . .

RAOUL: Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .
Let me lead you from your solitude . . .Say you need me with youhere, beside you . . .anywhere you go, let me go too. Christine, that's all I ask of you . . .

CHRISTINE: Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .say the word and I will follow you . . .

Looking forward...

Although there is still some way to go before my birthday, I have received 2 presents.

A sexy nice black top from myself (for the Night)
A full program for the birthday night from 5 petals

This is going to be a night I can definitely count on!

Well, something else closer to look forward to... count down for Phantom of the Opera... let me prepare my little hankerchiefs (one for the person sitting next to me, who is expected to cry too... sob sob...).

Weekend... continue with surprise

As per request, here are some strawberries from the field visit this afternoon...
















Bonus shot, early sakura... beautiful... this pleasant surprise just made my week...

Weekend... continue

For a moment, I thought I was wondering in Paris...


































However, the yellow cab and the Chinese roadsign telit is just a daydream...

Glad that I have my camera with me when wondering around. Otherwise, I would not be able to share these moments with you, friends...

out of depression

First of all, thanks for "True Religion" official website for the picture (that's not me, just to be clear).

After a few days of depression, I finally have got something happy to share. I have bought a pair of True Religion Jeans!!! Once again, it is proven that shopping is an effective anti-depression drug. Let's go to work happily and show appreciation to boss, who pays me the salary, by working harder and better (trying very hard to be positive).

Yeah! I have new pants for my birthday party!!! Ummm... may be I need a pair of matching heels which require a matching handbag. I also need a new top...

Weekend

I dragged myself to work in the past five days. The symptom of unmotivated at work is getting more and more serious.

How about weekends? Does that mean I am extra excited? No, I don't think so. Have a brunch, shopping with girl friends, yoga and then what? Dinner alone, or simply skip it.

I am really having a problem here. I am just not looking forward to anything.

Superstitious

I "consulted" a tarot master at a year end party for free just now. Well, usual questions like career and love were asked. Am I happy with the result? Not really.

About career, more specifically my current job, I have drawn two cards, one is "Death", the other one shown a man lying on the ground being stabbed by many swords on the back. Okay, even if I am not an expert, I can guess the meaning...

About love, basically the master told me, your luck will come 5 years later. She handed me a name card and said "come to me another day, I will give you a better fortune telling." Well, may be this implies a more "accurate" telling could only be given if you pay.

Expectation is hard to manage. The most difficult part is to manage my own expectation on things. To convince myself, I need extra effort . The worst thing is I couldn't give up on me, at least not yet. Somehow, I think there are a few nerves in my brain needs to be reconnected or worse, to be cut. Then I would not be that one-sided or stubborn.

Take things easy. The least expected always bring the most happiness (That's what I am telling myself, yet I am still expecting out of the "least expected").

my neigbourhood

looking out from the fishtank...

No subject

I was discussing the dos and donts of weddings with friends today. Music and Flowers are my top priorities.

Wait... should the top priority be the groom?

In Her Shoes

When I knew this movie is on today, I decided to watch it alone.

I made the right choice cos' I was crying as much as I wanted over the movie. Not sad, I was. It was more the tear of joy and being grateful about how lucky I am.

Trying to feel comfortable at the seat (in the middle of a row by the side), I removed my heels. After the preview in the dark, I realised I dropped one, literally. Shucks...

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

I carry your heart with me by E.E. Cummings

A celebration of sisterhood. To my only sister, my best friend.

Taking things to seriously

I found myself being too uptight about things at work. Possibly under the influence of my Singapore days, I have to get things right, 100% crystal clear. Somehow, it doesn't work here in Taiwan.

Nth new year resolution: take things easy. what are most important at work? People people people.

all time favourites Part II

When researching for the previous entry, I was remindered by amazon.com my 2 favourite Amercian series: - Wonder Years and Beverly Hills 90210 (I don't mind disclosing which generation I belongs to) To continue a tribute to my all time favourites, here is a listing of dream series (each episode worth a pack of Original Doritos to go with)
Wonder Years (1988-1993)
Beverly Hills 90210 (1990-2000)
Ally McBeal (1997-2002)
Sex and the City (1998-2004)
Malcolm in the middle (2000-present)
Monk (2002-present)
Lost (2005-present)

all time favourites

Here are my top ten all time favourites (means countless replays during long holidays): -

1. Sleepless in Seattle (English1993. Tom Hanks, Meg Ryan, directed by Nora Ephron)
2. You've got mail (English 1998. Tom Hanks, Meg Ryan, directed by Nora Ephron)
3. Home alone 1&2 (English 1990/1992. Macaulay Culkin)
4. 新紮師妹 (Hong Kong 2002. 楊千嬅, 吳彥祖)
5. About a boy (English 2002. Hugh Grant)
6. Bend it like Beckham (English 2003. Parminder Nagra, Keira Knightley)
7. Il Mare 觸不到的戀人 (Korean 2001. 全智賢, 李政宰)
8. Bridget Jones Diary (English 2001. Renee Zellweger, Hugh Grant, Colin Firth)
9. The Kid (English 2000. Bruce Willis)
10. Dead Poet Society (English 1989. Robin Williams)

Project I

This is the second time I am seriously planning for an escape.

Project I is much more complicated and lengthy. The planning period is going to take about 18 months. At the same time, capital raising will be taken place.

This is an escape from earth. I want to touch the sky.

2006 reborn

Single Female

I was checking out the new Eslite flagship store at ShinYi. It was impressive to find the Peru 500 threads bed sheet selling at the ground floor.

I was happily browsing the books at the second floor. "I must buy at least one book", I told myself. It was in the air that you have to get something from this place, be it dine-in or take away. The travelling section caught my attention as my urge of touring Europe has never been stronger. Then I realise the best sellers are mostly "Lonely Planet Guide for Single Women", e.g. 12 must-go places in a lifetime for women; Travelling without a reason : a guide for women travelling alone; etc..

It seems that single women are the group with strong purchasing power especially in luxurious items like a Package to Angkor Wat, Cambodia. Yeah, girls studied hard and got a good job, then focused in climbing the corporate ladder. They then became successful, and independent. So independent that they rather enjoy being alone than with someone (or too busy to actually get to know anyone, yap, or...).

The point is, yeah, we are on our own, but definitely not alone. Being able to afford a Peru 500 thread counts queen size bed sheet, I do not mind sleeping on it all by myself meanwhile.

Feeling strange...

I have this friend, a guy friend, who always gave me a strange feeling whenever I get in touch with. Somehow, I realise the pattern.

He started with being flirtatious and told you he was in cold war with girlfriend. If you responsed, then you would be trapped. Why? He all of a sudden became a 100% decent guy, while you turned into a whore. He would hint to you that "Don't try to think of anything funny. I love my girlfriend. You and me could never go further, not even one night stand".

May be this is a game for coward. Quit before crossing the border line.

bits and pieces

I am still overwhelmed with holiday mood (the underlying meaning is I don't have the mood to work)

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My christmas greetings have been sent out to people who meant to me. Some reverted with sincerity and some reverted out of courtesy. Anyways, it is always better to give.

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Felt like having old woman temper. Suddenly, I had a strong feeling of disliking someone. (shake head) strange woman, I mean, I am.

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The urge of upgrading myself is getting stronger and stronger. I need to save. Looking at the NT3XXX phone bill, I think I should cut down on IDDs.

1000 hits

To celebrate the 1000th hits of this blog, I hereby share with you the two pictures

夢中情人

I found myself easily felt for someone who is in state of pressure-free.
Because I was always the top priority of the person and I enjoyed it.

Yeah, time to go to bed and dream on.

favourite seasons?

I don't like Christmas. It was since seven years ago (that was 1998).
My mood would be recovered all the way til February the next year.

I have once told a friend this...

I realise people always make the same mistake even though they learnt in the past. Yeah, the "people" I am talking about is actually me. May be this is because I am always an idealist with full of hopes or imagination which buried the memory of the lesson learnt. I took out a pair of old Khaki pants this morning which I didn't touch for at least 2 years. I wore them with my new purple shirt and they went perfect. Still I believe it is actually not tailored too short. Simply because my waist was too fat back then therefore I couldn't wear it at lower waist. Until I wore my shoes and looked into the mirror again, I finally faced the reality and changed into another pants. Cos' it is really tailored a bit too short. sigh... I really like the pants still.

I have a glims of hope that things have turned better. Double disappointment when I realise everything is exactly the same like it was.

Gift... in return

It is heavy, really heavy,
my mood I am referring to.

Nodding head...

There's plenty of money out there. They print more of it every day. But that ticket? There are only five of them in the world, and that's all there's ever going to be. Only a dummy would give this up for something as common as money. Are you a dummy?

Quote from Grandpa George in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

Two quotations from Carls Sandburg

"Nearly all the best things that came to me in life have been unexpected, unplanned by me."

"The secret of happiness is to admire without desiring."



http://carl-sandburg.com

cool warmer ***

Product description: "experience the sensual and therapeutic benefits of the cool warmer therapy pack for safe and convenient relief of pains and strains great for offices, homes, sports and the outdoors." (Product designed in Singapore)

Comment by Water: "Wow! It is like a miracle! Once you flex the metal for three times, then the jelly turns into crystal and becomes warm. Slip it underneath the PJ, the whole body becomes warm. The heart is warmed as well."

Well, what is heartwarming is not only the pack, but also the thoughtful eye-roller who gave me this.

Cold ~~

The weather is getting cold. The forecast for next week is 12 to 18 degree. Wow! I haven't had such cold working days for long. Getting out of the warm bed is tough. Umm... I wish I were a sneak and could go hibernate.

Face the reality, bring out the heater and set the alarm.

Should one follow his heart or follow his head?

After the experience in the past twenty odd years, I learnt the fact that following one's heart might not be sensible sometimes. However, if you have the urge for something, although it might not make any sense, why don't you just do it? Or be regreted when you can't do it because of some constraint?

I should go and give it a try, perhaps...

Human Being

I believe life is made up of series of experience. To live an interesting life, I dare to walk the road less travelled. To become a better me, I learn through trial and error. Continue with the right's, stop doing the wrong's. I am faithful to my judgement, yet make wrong decision sometimes. Afterall, others judgement can't be neglected.

I am just a human being.

Gift

gift (gft)n.

Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation

Preparing a gift to someone you fond of is enjoyable. First of all, I think of what the person might like or appreciate. Once I have an idea in mind, I would start seaching. Being a perfectionist, I try to visit as many places as possible to look for the best alternative. Somehow, heavy personal taste is involved. After I have got the item, then I would think of how to make it unique or at least special. When everything ready, the next step is wraping. I might chose a bag, a wrapping paper with ribbon, some dry grasses or flowers. Of course, a lot of time is then spent in the process of wrapping. I think of the right time to give (not necessary to be immediate) and the right means of delivery. It could be in person or by courier.

The best part is to witness the reaction of the receiver during unwrapping. It is like heaven even if the person is responding from far away.

As time goes by...

Because of following "Lost", I didn't have enough sleep for the past whole week. So, I decided to take this weekend slow just like those days in Singapore. Furthermore, I am not really in the mood as I am waiting to hearing from someone. The weather is getting cold. I have opened the window and allowed the breeze to freshen my apartment. Laying on the couch under my little cashmere silk blanket, I continued meeting with the survivers in "Lost".

Lazing at home, my head is filled with memories of my Singapore days, the neighbourhood and the people. Although I chose to move on with my life, yet Singapore is still in my heart. Now I realised why I have been keeping myself busy over the past weekends. I was not ready to face the lost of my lazy Singapore afternoons.

Slience... continue

The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention…. A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words.

Quote by Rachel Naomi Remen

Childhood dreams

What was your childhood dream? To become a policeman, fireman, teacher, lawyer or a banker? I had a dream, that is to get my MBA before 30.

After living for twenty odd years, I do have some regrets in life. However, it was not in my hand. Now, approaching 30, it is time to realise if my childhood dream. Would I regret if I didn't do it?

I am brought up to be an independent adult. Is it time for me to control my fate?

一早起身又唔願起身, 返到公司又唔想做野

Top three recent additions: Nana; Lost and 電車男.

Quote from 史上最毒的星座評語

雙魚座

超級幻想主義加現實主義的綜合體，如果說你是浪漫主義，還真汙辱了浪漫兩個字！因為你的浪漫只用在你自己的腦袋跟你淚\汪汪的眼框裡，從來就沒有實踐過，因為你根本沒有能力。所以你只有幻想，沒資格說浪漫！但奇怪的是，你又超現實，跟別人算錢的時候你可一點都不含糊，那種算計的嘴臉，也叫人看了終身難忘！

情緒主導了你的一生，真是令人感到可悲，因為你怎麼也學不會用一丁點的理智來幫助你淒慘的人生，到老死的時候，還會認為你們家壞掉的洗衣機，只是為了跟你做對，才故意不讓你洗衣服！瘋到這種程度，連三歲小孩都會因為你的無知，替你感到難過！

自以為在拍電影，永遠活在霧中，不知悔改的死傢伙！

Forever Friends!?

Dear blog visitors,

Assume you love somebody and you know this somebody actually prioritises friendship over romantic relationship. Would you rather stay friends forever or down grade yourself to be his lover?

This is purely a hypothetical question... as if I can make the choice.

If you love someone, set them free

Feeling of helplessness

The conversation over the same topic happened twice. Same questions and same answers. There was the slightest hint of desire for company, be it love or friendship. Thing ought to be sorted out. Everybody wants a happy ending. I love the person, this time round, I am willing to let him free.

sleepless in Taipei

Don't know why it happen. It has been the same in the past few days. Is it the food that I ate? Or food I didn't eat? Is my mind occupied by things which make me sleepless?

I hate the feeling. Most importantly, i have missed my detox process of the day... ummm... frustrated.

I would not be able to wake up tomorrow.

最好的時光

It is hard to define " 最好的時光". Nevertheless, it is a moment to remember.

To someone:

"Thank you for creating our memories time after time. They are exclusive to us only. I don't know what will happen in the future, but I am sure no one can take these memories away from us. Grateful to have you to share them with me. And thanks for letting me know that you enjoy the moments as much as I do."

日有所思, 夜有所夢

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
I wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you know I'm there

If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you

So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
Yes, I doI'll be dreaming of you tonight
Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said I love you
I love you too

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

~ Dreaming of you Selena ~

It became a habit for me to go Page One reading books about astrology love relationships whenever I fell for someone. Pisces vs Cancer, vs Scorpio, vs Aquarius, etc... I did that repeatedly just because I found it heart warming. Everytime, I am full of passion and hope when flipping those books. They always tell me exactly thing I want to read, never let me down once.

I just came back from a trip to Page One, felt exhausted and was longing for a smoke. Sitting at the living room, smoking was just relaxing and fulfilling.

Have a good rest tonight and live a better day tomorrow. I will be patient.

Repeat and Repeat... Part II

從來不相信我的世界可以有多完美　痛苦寂寞還有一些疲憊
不允許他人隨意進入我的零度空間　寧願孤獨懶得再去想誰

走出零度空間終於一切分裂　就算愛的很累我卻不會後悔　
放下所有防備一切都無所謂　逃出黑暗世界開始新的明天

零 by 柯有倫

孤獨 沉澱 逃避 寂寞

"喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻但不能喜歡 太多"
"終於有機會讓自己再沉澱"
"我需要休息 我需要安靜的舉行我需要逃避 攤開你的手讓我死在你懷裏"
"離開你的我不論過多久還是會寂寞"

All lyrics by 陳綺貞

Repeat and Repeat... Part I

能成為密友　大概總帶著愛
但做對好兄弟　又如此相愛　旁人會說不該
忘形時搭膊　自有一面退開　　　
暗裡很享受　卻怕講出來
兩眼即使　移開轉開　心裡面也知　這是愛

(勞斯．萊斯 by 何韻詩)

New Goal in Life

Be a healthy, fit, glowing and happy me.
Watch my diet, do plenty of exercise, wake up/ go to bed early!

Silence

Moments in life are like movie scenes. Sometimes, you know what will come up in the next, but sometimes don't. For the unknown future, we better keep quiet. "Saying nothing...... sometimes say the most."

My sixth sense told me, thing cannot be forced through this time. Let it happens if it ought to happen. If it doesn't, it is meant to be. Enjoy the moment of silence when the clock stopped ticking.

"Silence is as deep as eternity, speech, shallow as time."

Ipod is gone. sob sob~

Somewhere only we know

Everyone has their stories at some places. Every place has stories of someone.

One of mine happened in Boston.

九份

I wonder if I am a full time tourist, part time bank officer or the other way round. Anyhow, I have not much to complain about life in Taipei.

Hillside teahouse is one of the places I have been longing to visit. I went to one at 九份 yesterday. Although the weather is not fabulous, the mood is good.

"不願眼睜睜的看你　走出我的生活"
陳綺貞-華麗的冒險

Do I have a choice? Yes, have my eyes closed.

一杯茶餐廳熱奶茶可以令人好很感動. 多謝波記!

Longing for weekend

The anxiety for weekend has never been stronger.

7:00 pm, Friday, I am a freeman. I am myself, no longer the slave at work.

Going forward is the 2 and 1/2 days I earned from the five days of "hard work". Of course, the money as well. Now, I unchain myself from the chair in front of my laptop and desk, and live my real life.

At Mint, I passed out for a while, not because of alcohol, but my "daydream". I was reminded by the lighting, the music, the movement of the people of my days in Singapore, at Zouk, at Attica too, at Mohamed Sultan, at Indo Chine.... I miss the crowd in Singapore, I seemed to see you all dancing out there... My buddies, my teddy boys... and strangers somemore... (Sorry my Singish slipped)... I was sad for a moment, yet I recovered from dancing along the music. I am glad that I have you all in my Singapore days...

I am doing fine in Taipei. I hope you do too...

19th Sept + 1 mth = 19th Oct

Target: reduce 4kg.
Method: any possible ones.

Looking forward to the day..... cos' I am really serious about it.

只是曾經擁有, 才會失去......
為何只哀悼失去的, 不興幸擁有過?

Somehow I have forgotten the meaning of life for a while and kept questioning myself why am I living? One day in Tokyo, I saw a blind when crossing the road and was enlightened. Living life is about experience with our five senses. Yes, enjoy life is that simple.

東京後記

This was the second visit of the year. As planned, my focus was more on experiencing the city than shopping. Although under strict self control, I have bought 1 jacket, 2 cardigans, 1 top, 1 camera and a few bottles of cosmetic (which all cannot be avoided). To conclude the trip, I have a few points to make as below: -

• It was a "detox" trip as I 1) screamed my lung out at Yomiuri Land (rollercosters and freefalls) which allow me to let out all my suppressed emotion; 2) rejuvenated myself in hotspring at Hakone (5 different pools); 3) shared my frustrations with my buddy and sought out my short term goal at this stage of life.
• Things that I hate about Tokyo are 1) inefficient Imigration counters for Foreigners (stood in line for 1and1/2 hour); 2) expensive local transportation; 3) the consequence of (2), is I have to walk a lot.
• White peach smelt so sweet.
• Time flies. The listener of my complaints about life has known me for nine years... didn't realise until we counted.

Life would not be as fun without friends, coffee and cigarettes......

The sisterhood of the travelling pants

Another good movie discovered from the on-flight movie (after "Music from another room").

"The sisterhood of the travelling pants" is about four teenagers who are good friends. Before they went abroad for their own summer vacations, they had found a pair of magic jeans which surprisingly fitted in all four of them (well, don't argue but listen). So, they decided to make a pact over the jeans and passed it around together with journals by express mail while travelling.

The jeans represented the bond among the four friends. It is a celebration of friendship and sisterhood! The screenplay was written by Delia Ephron. http://sisterhoodofthetravelingpants.warnerbros.com/about.html

Here's to my sisters, Carmen, Michelle, Lisa, Miranda and Sarah. I love you all. It is a magic to have you in my life. I trust that our friendship, sisterhood and love keep us together, no matter how far we travel in different paths.

Inspiration over a cup of mocha

I always wanted to visit "台北之家" as I have passed by in car for so many times. Finally, I was there this Sunday. The first thing I did was browsing in "誠品". There are quality collection of video (not the 3 for TWD199 type), which I appreciated. The store is just like the magnified version of the tiny video corner at the "誠品敦南店". It is inspiring! I left the store with three movies which I have been wanting to watch.

中毒 (Korean)
戀戀風塵 (Taiwanese)
春去春又來 (Korean)

I was satisfied as I have never imagine to get all three from the same place.

After shopping, I sat myself down at the alfresco cafe on the ground floor of the building. The weather was just nice to sit outdoor, not too hot. I ordered a mocha and nothing else, cos' i have got only enough for a drink. Took out my book and started reading... All of a sudden, I was inspired to write. So I took a pamphlet picked up earlier outside the movie theatre and started writing.

It is about romantic love. After twenty odd years, I thought I understand it, but actually not.

Being a piscesian, I am chasing after "perfect love". But the idea seems to make me sad more than anything. Should I assume "perfect love" equals to happiness? Should "perfect love" equals to "forever"? May be I was wrong.

Wait, who defined "perfect love"? Is it told in fairy tale, movies or TV series? Is it sterotyped by people in the society? Is it only confined to mutual emotional exchange? Is it true that only long lasting relationship means perfect love? How about love at first sight, but not long lasting? Well, there are "Romeo and Juliet" and "梁祝"?

Any reference book available in library? May be only the person in a "perfect love" knows what is "perfect love". I won't give up searching...

台北之家

Good night sleep...

I had a good rest over the weekend and went to bed before 12 last night. When I woke up this morning, I felt energetic and refreshed to go to work. Most importantly, I felt peace and calm at heart.

I felt lighter and much less frustrated. That might be because I have something to look forward to this weekend.

Today Joint Horoscopes of Pisces and Scorpio

"Decisions might be crazy-making right now, especially if you're unable to get in touch with each other. Communication might have more fizzle than sizzle, particularly if neither of you is being especially proactive about discussing the logistics of a big decision that involves you both. Don't delay this any longer, or these minor snags could turn into some pretty big snarls. Once you get all the plans in place, the pieces will start to snap together and form quite a pretty picture. So get moving already!"

Remark: I was shocked when I read the paragraph. How do they know all these? Well, but the story has ended. Nowhere to move.

Here I am again soon...

Hello Tokyo!

I wonder...

why am i here in Taipei?
why am i dealing with meanless tasks each day?
why am i talking to ppl who are not really interesting?
why the regular warm hearted MSN conversations have been terminated?
why would friend become stranger?
why thing used to be beautiful turned sour?
why am i penalised for not being in Singapore?
why i don't want to move back to Hong Kong?
why i am missing someone who didn't care about me?
why are there so many typhoon in Taiwan?
why...

Remember this!

阿水2.0 says:
so, let's not think it is sth bad...
*~Michelle~* says:
as i've always said..
*~Michelle~* says:
it's always during the midst of chasing it that u think is the best thing tat cld happen to u
阿水2.0 says:
we just stopped at the right time when everything for each other are so beautiful
*~Michelle~* says:
but when u get it..it may be otherwise

Today is not my day... I ll sleep early

sigh...

For record, just a few minutes ago, my heart was stabbed.
You've got it.

I go to bed now.

Pisces wisdom

Conversation between two pisceans last night

Pisces A says:
We pisces are doomed
Pisces B says:
How come?
Pisces A says:
Life seems to be hopeless. Mistake kept repeating itself. Doomed, doomed, doomed...
Pisces B says:
No, no, I don't see it this way. If my day was not a good one, I went to bed earlier and hoped tomorrow would be a better day. If next day turned out not a good one, then I slept earlier..........................

通告

1. 阿水寶寶 is born today (6th Sept). He is my blog pet.

2. "Rainbow Concoction" is added to my favourite link.

Thank you for your attention.

I've got a friend - 5pf

The feeling sucks when one "swallows" her tears. Bitter, not a tiny tinge of sweetness. That is the problem of being a grown up. I can't recall when "crying out loud with tears" was put under the family of suppression.

When my eyes were burning, I picked up my phone, a call away, I was connected to my very own "Angel Hotline" (Not related to any Adult Hotline business).

Then, everything seems right again under the big blue sky. Let's me cheers by singing this to 5pf

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

You've got a friend Lyrics by Carole King

Thanks for the needle. Time for hard reboot.

My bubble burst. I asked for the needle as I can't allow it to grow any bigger. It was known to be imaginery and was simply meaningless. I have to stop indulging in an unrealistic world, built by myself. It is totally unfair to all parties involved.

Things used to be "meaningful" are not important anymore. Spiritual belief was just a slogans. Pure physical pleasure was the actual agenda.

Meaningless things can be left behind. Press the button for hard reboot, delete memories and restore the system back to normal. Reborn into a new me tomorrow, a better one.

Wait, thanks for everything before I forget.

A hard reboot is a full restore of a handheld computer (or PDA) to its factory settings. It entails deleting all information stored in the handheld. This is essentially the same as reformatting a hard drive. A hard reboot may become necessary from time to time on a PDA which has too many unreliable programs on it, thus restoring integrity to the system. It should be used with caution, as it destroys all data stored in the unit. (Sourced from http://www.fact-index.com/)

If I have three wishes, I wish...

to become transparent and be able to move to anywhere
to swallow a "forget and forgive" pill
to be happy everafter

Where is my fairy god mother?

Chicken Little.... Cute!

秋涼

My long lost Autumn is on the way. Can't wait to enjoy the autumn breeze. The feeling is so good. Will there be red, orange and yellow leaves? The colour combination is just perfect.

When will winter coming? I will be waiting for the arrival of winter with patience. As I am hoping for one miracle in the season.

杏仁豆腐

I got almond tofu as my dinner or to be precised, dessert. Not much appetite over this weekend. Well, I would treat it as a good chance to clean up my digestion system.

I have done my first yoga class today. This resulted a lower back ache, which is normal. After yoga, I went to watch "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory". This is the movie I needed to catch (missed it in Singapore and HK) and I am glad that I did so.

So, what is next? I am going to paint my nails, watch another DVD "Buena vista social club", do facial and read some books before bed. Let me think, what else... ummm...

I am certainly not trying hard to engage my life with things. I am certainly not trying to distract myself from thinking of things which makes me sad. No, I am not.

Frozen

All the doors were locked and curtains were closed.

In the dimly lit room, a big white handkerchief was laid on the table. I took them out one by one delicately and placed them carefully on the hanky in chronological order. I tied the first knot with two corners and then tied another knot with the other two. The package was light. It was then put into a airtight plastic box. I confirmed the lid was tightly covered. The box was put into the freezer which tempreture was maintained at zero to below four degree celsius. This would ensure the freshness and avoid any unnecessary leakage of the content in the box.

Indulge

in·dulge ( P ) Pronunciation Key (n-dlj)
v. in·dulged, in·dulg·ing, in·dulg·es
v. tr.

1. To yield to the desires and whims of, especially to an excessive degree; humor.
2. 1. To yield to; gratify: indulge a craving for chocolate.
   2. To allow (oneself) unrestrained gratification: indulged herself with idle daydreams. See Synonyms at pamper.
3. Roman Catholic Church. To grant an ecclesiastical indulgence or dispensation to.

v. intr.

1. To indulge oneself: eyed the desserts but didn't indulge.
2. To engage or take part, especially freely or avidly: indulged in outrageous behavior; indulged in all the latest fads.

Greed is one of the human weaknesses. In the bible term, it is a "sin". It makes man suffered. It makes me suffered. I am sad simply because I am being greedy. Can I be satisfied with what I have got and just move on with my life as normal?

I can't. In fact, things are different and time cannot be turned back.

My horoscope today said: Pisces The stars work in mysterious ways. Just when you'd given up hope on getting something, somehow everything rearranges itself to get you exactly what you need -- and no delivery fee, even.

Felt better after reading it. May be some hope is all I need. "Someday we find it, the rainbow connection, the lovers, the dreamers and me".

the smoke was superb not only because you were lying there, but also the nicotine was reacting in your fast circulating blood.

things do not happen randomly all the time. someone somehow is manipulating the process to achieve the result. or even all parties involved are contributed to the manipulation, yet doing it subtly. so what is next? do we really need to care what is next or should we simply appreciate the process and the result of it? it could be a complete story on its own with each chapter nicely written. it might not be overwhelming in terms of dialogue, but we shouldn't expect too much from the initial try.

I didn't realise the skyline of Singapore is so beautiful until my return. Being a dreamer, I wish my stay here would never end.

May be when I know time is limited, everything here becomes more precious. Who knows what is the next wonderful thing happen to you under the blue sky? Until now, I must say, I am all prepared to fight the battle again. Life will go on with "sweetness found in the bitterness".

Hong Kong Night Scene

It was a rainy day... in front of the window screen...

We cried a bit less than i have expected during the airport pickup. Hehehe...

Waterdrop to celebrate the grand opening of Monoliza

Coming home

Although it has only been two months since i last went home, I am excited about this time round. Cos' I am going to meet Ming. Ming is one of the most important person in my life, who I haven't seen for almost two years/24 months/ 730 days.

I am looking forward to the family reunion. Nothing is more exciting than that, seriously.

Mom told me, she was busy preparing for the return of her two trouble kids. For the family, it is as joyful as Chinese New Year!

5 Petals Flower said: Writing make an impression on people!

I agree.

Secret Garden

Photo taken at Daan Park (7 mins bus ride fr home) on Sat morning.

Pay attention to your neighbourhood, the secret garden is just right there. Seize the day!

Gardening

Finally, I have kicked off my "gardening" project. I went to the flower market, bought 5kg of organic soil and 8 plants (4 flower and 4 green). In one afternoon, I have completed half of the area, which is treated as an experiment to see how good it worked out.

Although the florist told me, without sun, the flowers would not grow properly, I still insisted to buy the flower plants as the purple flowers were smiling at me and were hard to resist...

Let's appreciate the result and share my hardwork!

weird dream

No matter how hard I scream, these strangers in my house refused to leave. Instead, they brought new people in. They invaded the whole apartment, the bathroom, bedrooms and living room.

The idea is kind of scary.

I had this dream may be because I had two girl-friends bunk-in after clubbing last night.

Kidadult

I am 28. Way above legal age to do basically everything. Living alone in my apartment, I am leading my independent life with a nine to eight job. The job is just my source of income which allows me to finance whatever I want... tones of books, toys, clothes, hitech gadgets. It supports my luxurious travelling... to Europe, to Japan... but nothing else...
With the adult appearence, I am still a "kid' at heart.
I like bearbrick, Hello Kitty and comics. Enjoy stationary shopping and all sorts of candies. Occassionally, I indulged myself in Orange soda (which make my tongue all orangie)...
When I was a kid, I always wanted to be an adult. But now, I wish I were a kid.

Inspired by Jan Lamb's "thirtysomething"

金鳳翠華

Dear friends from Singapore and Taipei: proudly presented crusine from my home town...

奶茶
西多
蛋撻
腿蛋治烘厎
沙爹魚餃河
鮮油波籮包

為了我不懂廣東話的朋友們,今次我係會利用白話文來寫我的"部落"。

今日因為台風不用上班。

內心不禁有一絲的興奮,困為上班漸漸失去義意。這個題目己經不陌生了,我亦不是不知道最後的答案。照計一曰有薪水發就做一日。

只係定期發一下勞騷而以。有吉屎就請辭吧。

Friends are gifts from God. You don't meet them everywhere.

People has no obligation to be your friend. What to do? Pack, go home, eat and watch DVD on your own. Life is still interesting, in another way. Typhoon is coming. What will happen tomorrow?