Blame no one

should I be able to squeeze time for self reflection, I should be about to write. Just that I haven't put the effort of doing so yet.

It's about paying attention to my feeling

i realise another reason for lacking of blog entry...
I didn't pay much attention to my feeling.

When reflecting my mental state, I realise I am looking at the whole thing from a distance, which is interesting to know.

Someone kept sending mixed signals. Due to the inconsistency, I have also discounted the positive ones.

I wonder...

The biggest loser

I am happy because there is a break through in my weight level after a long plateau. My hard work counts.

My BMI was 17.7!!!

Well, better jog tomorrow as a new round of hot spring egg will be in production.

hung out with an old timer. both of us have been away from home for a good while. sitting next to each other we talked about north east south west, as if we were not apart for too long.

we went to lit class together back then, both of us have once written, and yet not back home.

it is sad to realise, the room for imagination, room to think, room for reflection has been killed back home. as if I step back to the concrete and can't affort to daydream anymore. i scream for a rescue, an escape...

at home, i have many roles to play and i have to be the big sister everybody look up to... i am back to monotone, colourless...

and daydream is me. and i can't do that anymore at home... i can't be myself!? or can i do something about it?

barely a date

It has been a long time I was asked to dinner by a guy.
I am happy!