In a gay club

Only until I experienced it, I realise how much fun it is when I am 100% care free and be my true self at clubbing.

I actually joined the conversation of the guys standing next to me. I ran into people from all paves, speaking Taiwanese, French, Japanese... We were all enjoying the company of each other and laughing so hard.

About friendship

It was over the top of my tolerance level. I gave him a piece of my mind via sms. May be I am done with putting up with his "being spontaneous".

I let go of another other one...

remember with my taste bud

A friend asked me what good is Singapore? This is one of the FAQs to me. I realise, not too many people agree with me on good food in Singapore. No no no, not Pepper crabs...

Black carrot cake in the very warm hawker centre, Curry mee at Hong Lim after the long queue, Fishball noodle late night at Newton, Roti prata at River Valley before rolling home after zouk, Green eggs at Epicurious along river side on a lazy Sunday, a Teh from the little tuck shop behind Suntec at snaking hour, Chicken rice at Chin Chin Purvis St..

The taste is unique to me as my very own Singapore memories to come with.

2009

I have been thinking of spending 1 week each in Shanghai and Beijing next year and wonder around the cities, alone or with Ming if she is also up for it.

It just keeps haunting me. Keep thinking about what excuse i should come up with not attending. I have to lie to everyone around me, including my closest. D said I can't face it cos' I am not over it yet. That's not true. Just that I am not comfortable with the fact that someone taking a vow, promising to be with another person together forever. Yet, the person doesn't mean it. Smiling, laughing and cheering for the rest of the world but himself. I don't want to be part of it, faking it together with him. Why? Why we need to do that? Why am I forced to do that?

Hard earned weekend

I am going to watch TV like there is no tomorrow...

You are my person

One of the many reasons I am addicted to Grey's is the friendship between Meredith and Cristina. In the first season, Cristina revealed her secret preganancy to Meredith and told her that she was put as the emergency person. That's where "the person" came from.

And in the Fifth season, Meredith is struggling about moving in with Derek.
Meredith: If I'm going to do this, and be whole and healthy and be a warm, gooey person who lives with a boy... then I need you on board. I need you to cheer me on. Because you're the only one who knows me. Darkly. Really knows me. I need you to pretend that I can do this even if you don't believe. Because if you abandon me now, I will never make it, and I will never get my happy ending and that's just...life.
Cristina: Mer, why do you care what I think?
Meredith: Because you're my person!

Lucky to have found my person away from home.

Copybook

I just went through some wedding pictures of an old friend from Singapore. Shots after shots of a happy bride, making grant entrance, cutting cake, toasting, giving speech, laughing next to the groom... Many of my Singapore friends are now married. They should all have their beautiful shots from the wedding day.

But why all seem to be in the same mode?

Like Lisa said, people out there are writing copybook, it must start with capital letter A and ended with Z. Why bother to composite anything unique?

I had my Singapore outing for 7 days.

Spent some quality time with my parents. Had a good chat over brunch with 5pf, catching up on work and play.

I hate the fact that I didn't have sufficient alone time to sort things out (the only achievement was the 3 hours on flight, reading paper, book and working on my saving plan). It has been very stressful at work since the beginning of September. Very uncertain.

May be I will spend the coming few "parent-free" days to sit and think.

After Singapore trip...

I ask myself to save for the rainy days.
Dine out less and drink less is essential.