Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Flattered...

I am loved by so many friends whom I met along the journey...

5pfx2, lisax3, sarahx2, steph, margaret, brandon, daniel darling, YT, jason, hun, ivan, dan, sherry, conny, fuigo...

I kept my eyes open to enjoy every moment being pampered by all of you...

Happy

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, you want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du duduDu du du du du du dudu
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Lyric of "Anyone Else but You" O.S.T. from Juno

Sunday, February 24, 2008

hollow

Dinner tonight was just hollow. It didn't feel good at all.

Thank god I brought my buffer. At least I have someone to fall on anytime. Too much fake smile these day. Tonight, I have put a big one on to cover my disappointment.

To me: It is about time to take a step back and cool myself off a bit, from people I have once thought I could rely on. Take a deep breathe, stand up and move on.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Black

Black is the colour.

I wish I were alone in my very own space and sink. Sink to the bottom.

It was depressing and helpless. If possible, I would get someone to cut open my head and disconnect the nerve that dominate my emotion. Then, may be I would be happier.

The journey from office to home felt longer than normal.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I am happy to start using my aquamobile.

On the other hand, I have spent hours to search for a free software which can help to manage sms in my HTC touch, despite my upcoming exam is burning.

On the cab on my way home, I was reminded Hun once told me back in my college year, when everyone was still holding on to a beeper. All the "saved" messages should have been saved here (pointing to his heart), not in the beeper. He told me this when I was whining about all precious messages were gone after my beeper ran out of battery.

Does it really matter if the digital messages are erased along with the old phone? Should I rely on a digital device to safe keep my memories? Or should it be following me? Or it is already following me but I am not aware? May be if I am able to let go of those I ought to let go, then I have the capacity for something new to be saved?

I have once said how much I wish my brain works like any of the digital device that after a hard reboot everything could be erased without a trace. Shouldn't I be happy to let go of those I was not able to let go? Am I stuck in a sugar coated water drop too much that I have missed out a lot of beautiful things happening around me?

Monday, February 18, 2008

selfish kids

We are doing it the way we each want. Going the pace we are each comfortable with. I sms a plain statement just because I wanted to. He didn't response right away, cos' he didn't see the need. Or he didn't care. He responsed in a teasing tone when he found the chance.

No, he didn't miss it. It didn't slip his mind. It is just at a lower priority.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Open up

Embracing my 31st birthday, I am prepared for series of celebration starting this Saturday. Afterall, this is the first birthday in Hong Kong after 5 years being away from home.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I was telling Hun about this : I think I have done what ought to be done. If I see no response, there is no point to keep pushing. I refuse to make myself an annoyance to my counterpart, especially when he is someone I like.

Hun said he has a different approach. If he was in my shoe, he would keep pursuing until the counterpart tells him to stop. Yet he respected my view as it is advance thinking.

Hun being another Piscean, could be same same but different from me. Yet to tell his story about Valentines day flowers.

Remark: at this point, I am done with my meditation. I see myself in good progress recovering from last night.

Post long night out syndrome

Sitting myself up with a heavy head, I can't stop my brain replaying the songs I heard last night.

This morning, I kept reminding myself about the "zero expectation"rule. Take a deep breathe, eat an orange, drink more water and move on with better things to do over the weekend.

Friday, February 15, 2008

14th February

Seeing the delivery boys and girls with bouquets of very nicely arranged roses on hand and calling the recipients at the lift lobby, I always fantasize one of them was calling for me.

Yet to me, sincerity is more than everything. Whether it is a bouquet of red roses, pink roses, or at lower budget a bunch of sunflowers, doesn't matter.

Afterall, heart matters. What's better than 2 hand delievered egg tarts by the boy I adore on the Valentines day? Especially he looked into my eyes when he handed the 2 egg tarts to me... Heavenly...

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Gary and Boris

Recently, I found that Gary and Boris were seperated and became "Gary Kwok" and "Boris and Matthew". I knew about Gary & Boris as they were arrangement behind the brand Armani Fiori. Not sure about now.

I still have a dream to take a long break from my current job and be a part-time helper at either one of the florists. I know to pursue this I had to give up more than my nicely done manicure. I know, 5pf.

New Layout

This is the 3rd year since the blog published.

Here is a brand new layout to kick off the year of rat. The above picture was taken in Fontainebleu in 2006. Is it a dream or a reality? Only I have the answer.

粗口人

最近, 我的朋友常常在我(們)面前爆粗.
最初我還不以為意,但朋友又爆粗又狂叫,我始發覺有點奇怪.
對於心理學非常感興趣的我開始思考他的行為及其動機.

結論是, 他已經當了我們是熟朋友/兄弟了.
是好事嗎?

Random Thoughts - Chinese New Year

The CNY holiday is always easier to handle than Christmas. Even if I folded myself at home for all four days of holiday, there is no bad feeling at all. New year holiday is meant to be bored and doing nothing.

Giving parents red packets has became a practice since last year. Well, once the expectation is built, there is no way of return.

Time for planning this year's investment. I am not greedy. Just expecting an annual return of 10 - 15%.

Should start studying for my paper 1 exam ASAP. Can't fail. It's a face issue. But I can feel the laziness...