An unplanned encounter...

I don't know how exactly it happened.

The moment when he came into my sight, everything turned into slow motion for 2 seconds. One, Two. Even the voice beside me went slow.

This shouldn't happen to a 29 years old.

No matter how I "cool" sounded, my sunshine smile had betrayed me. Although the brief conversation only lasted 1.5 min, it was the best moment I have had through out the past 30 days.

It was just an illusion, I told myself.

History taught me that it is better to walk away with good memories.

I'd like to close this episode with two quotations from Carls Sandburg which were once quoted in my blog on 7th Dec, 05

"Nearly all the best things that came to me in life have been unexpected, unplanned by me."

"The secret of happiness is to admire without desiring."

Hi Doctor

"Please take a seat. How do we feel today?" doctor said
"Well, I am feeling okay actually. I am here because I don't feel like sleeping at night and don't feel like waking up in the morning. Is there something wrong with me, doctor?" I asked.
"What keeps you from going to bed?"
"Reading, net surfing, replaying DVDs... mostly sex and the city episodes, MSN-ing, blogging and eating occassionally" I went as I was running through my list of night time rituals.
"And what time do you wake up?"
"Usually I wake up without alarm. At nine." I answered shamelessly.
"On a work day even!?" Doctor was amazed.
"Yeah. Well, actually, the alarm was snoozed for so many times that it stopped ringing."
Doctor was busy scribling prescription and then said "Don't worry girl. This is not abnormal. You just hate your job and is trying to stretch your leisure time as long as possible. Take this and get your medication at the counter outside."

At the counter, I got a pack of Mile Seven menthol light and a white coffee mug.

Carpe Diem... continue

What is life? A philosophical question.

Life is about compromising. Man has unlimited wants with limited resources. Therefore we have to make choice. The opportunity cost would be the best alternative to what has been chosen. This is economics.

Life is about happiness. My lovely family is happy, then I am happy. Even if I have to forgo my dream?

Numb, emotionally unresponsive, indifferent
You are hopeless on matters or people, til you become indifference

Hopelessness
definition : the despair you feel when you have abandoned hope of comfort or success

You once have hope, but no longer do.
What was my hope?

Repeat and Repeat... Part III

almost 75 times since 3 days ago.

手望(守望版) Featuring 張敬軒

落葉上要寫字　願望是讓眼睛只看到善意
我要我的天使同情我廝守一輩子
花不開也看成奇蹟　枯乾的世界漫延
不要問我那故事難過極了

寂寞夜裡出現　是為著讓曙光消散了便算(我看到你)
我已害怕光線　停留漆黑中等變酸(沒法一起)
天多灰也當是藍色　深居於新生樂園
軀殼在這個世上零度裡探賞(新生的你)

途中花瓣結霜　連手心都凍傷(如果雙手覺得快凍傷)
又再妄想　連呼吸都灼傷　
求天賜我膽量(求天令你堅強)
若意識裡沒法看穿這個下場(請相信我這下場)
期望你空中拖著我歌唱(其實我拖著你)
手捉不到　在透明異國共舞

寂寞夜裡出現　是為著讓曙光消散了便算
我也害怕光線　你不需一個變酸
星星粉碎了留痕跡　一早知願望樹絕情不要亂碰　
那次傷口太深　越痛V要分心(望見你不開心　越痛越要分心)

只可惜當回憶統統結霜　連真心都凍傷(如果真心覺得快凍傷)
就怪我的求生聲音太響　難擁你到天上(你不要跟我走　你要學會堅強)
若有天你望見世間我已著涼(不想親眼看你著涼)
原諒我不小心或太緊張(不准傷心或太緊張)

屈膝禱告　為我們下世預告來生比你走得早　
好想你擁抱(想抱)
落葉上再寫字　願望是共你於天國裡遇見
昨日未了的事　靜靜讓你知(靜靜讓我知)

Its simple to be HAPPY

One, Two, Three, Cheers!

Politics & Women in Office

Don't expect any brilliant comments on the subject after few glasses of wine and plenty of BS at a bar near to my apartment.

let's leave it for the next entries.

Duh... the end!

I have my isolating moments. An isolation of myself from the crowd.


I took a step back and looked at my four companion at the dining table giggling, trying to figure out how my Dopod worked under the table for at least 15 mins. Without eleborating on how it worked out, the message was sent.

In exchange, we got a bottle of complimentary Moet Chandon Rose and a pat on my head.










I am grateful having my friends to share the moments with me.

Gosh, my right eye ball inflated like a balloon but the pupil. So, it looked like a black button pressed on a ballon. You don't want to see it, I bet.

On the other hand, it is a signal that my body is not functioning well.

Duh!

Special thanks to all the friends to be dragged to Ziga Zaga this weekend. Some of them aware and some of them don't.

Couldn't wait longer to pick out my phone, I started SMSing to make reservation for Saturday night. Out of expectation, instead of a "yes, it's done" SMS, a real voice reply came after an hour.

Little chat... nothing special... the conversation ended with a delightful note: looking forward to seeing you on Saturday. Yeah~ firework went at the background...

Monologue: Gal, isn't it normal to get that remark at the end of all phone call reservations at restaurants? Duh, perfectly. Don't think too much. Just enjoy the evening!

Love ain't slavery

Do you remember?

I can do it, only if I am given a chance.
Now, there is one in front of me.

Do I have to repeat to myself what needs to be done?

This round, if I failed, there is no one to blame but myself.

26 degree

I was not sleeping well last night. It was too warm.
And I refused to turn on the air con.
It is April, not July.
April is just not "summer" enough to turn on the air con.

a dose of legal drug...

"Yes, I love you very much, as I have never loved another man, and that is precisely why I am leaving, because, if I stayed, the dream would become reality, the desire to possess, to want your life to be mine... in short, all the things that transform love into slavery.

It's best left like this - a dream."

Quoted from Eleven minutes - Paulo Coelho

I am still in search for an ideal relationship and I agree love shouldn't be transformed to slavery. Don't try to change man. Love him for who he is.

A word a day

Infatuation

in·fat·u·a·tion ( P ) Pronunciation Key (-fch-shn)n.
A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.
An object of extravagant, short-lived passion.

Listen to The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice

the pupil in denial