All night long...

Yeah, I have violated "the rules". Instead of 3 days noticed in advance, I said yes to an invitation 2 hours beforehand. Well, it has been a long waited invitation.


This is the nth time, i quoted this "Nearly all the best things that came to me in life have been unexpected, unplanned by me."

Just treasure and be happy with the 4 hours one on one encouter. And no need to look for more. It will come when it ought to come.

Pulling the string-

In the past weeks, I felt like being tided on a string which end is on his hand.

Whenever I was about to untied myself, he pulled me closer. Closer and closer, until one point, he released.

One second is forever -

The unexpected encounter today. The scene was just beautiful. My romantic movie scene looks like this, their eyes met, the focus is on the two of them, the rest of the setting and people became blur. The scene is turning 180 degree from the girl's point of view to the guy's (the Matrix way of turning). The moment just frozen for that one second.

Screaming

Again super stressed from work....

Ups and Downs

First of all, super stressful at work. And that's it about work.

Well, everything went fine last night. Like Steph and 5pf always suggested, be myself. I did and i think it was well received.

Today... I have picked up a different identity. Everything became upside down.

I felt really bad when seeing his face today.

the next key decision...

Hey, I realised I have already made quite some significant decisions for myself in the course 30 years. Switching from Chinese University to UST, applying for Boston exchange, asking for a relocation to Singapore, moving to Taipei, asking to move back to HK... all these decisions shaped the me today. Cool, isn't it?

Me, standing as an individual, once again made a decision today. It is not as major as relocation, but this is the first time I gave up my personal arrangement for my work.

I have committed my Taiwanese sister to attend her wedding. I have arranged my facial with Bee and nail with Wei Li. I have arranged to meet up with Little S, Kobe, Steph, Ah Chai, Sunny, Ron and my beloved colleagues... oh, and jessie and eugene....

This is a big commitment...
Just the trip for three weeks. Got to get a dress for the black and white ball instead...

I wish he just knows... without me telling...
Harry Potter's turn to give out some potion either for me or him...

My goodness...

It has been a long time since I have a crush on guy. I was sitting next to him over drink with few others. Couldn't help but smiling while looking at him (caught by him for a couple of times). His single eye lids just reminded me of the little boy that I admired from primary school.

We have met three evenings in past seven days, yet all were group gathering. He was thoughtful and tender hearted in some ways. It was really sweet of him. But, the fact might be he treats every girl with such tender heart.

I think I should better keep a distance from him before I fall deeper...

Dear Blogger, again

I wanted to write about my week... a lot to tell...
too bad it's time for bed. I will leave it for later.

Stay tune.

to be or not to be ... a bitch

I realise I am growing into a real bitch. This traces back to my days in Taipei or Singapore. In order to win, I don't care if I need to raise my voice, pick a fight, threaten people or even lie. Getting what I want is in higher priority than how people perceive me. Of course, the story has to be logical and convincing when it is being retold.

My Captain told me about the dramatic fights in the corporate finance business review. All MDs, both male and female, were confronting each other with no hesitation. Being mean and think skin seems to be one of the prerequisite of being successful.

In the office, being nice doesn't gain you what you want nor any respect. In contrary, being mean and make yourself clear about the demand (if not loud enough, I can be louder), then you are likely to get what you want, with a downside of being called a bitch behind the back.

Do I care? Let those stupid people call me name. I don't really care after I turned 30.

喜歡

越來越難說出口, 不是不喜歡, 但要想的太多了.

每次坐在他的對面, 我都很想知道關於他的多一點. 可是他懶講, 我也不敢多問. 不敢是為怕知太多我會不再喜歡...

Which is your next?

I am eyeing on Nano...

我有一堆看了會心酸得喉嚨像被嗆住了, 卻欲哭無淚的愛情片. 就是因為愛得曖昧, 似是而非.

花樣年華
Lost in Translation
空屋情人
生日快樂

我想「呼吸」將會是下一部...
這些戲, 我都喜歡躲起來看.

期待永遠比當下美麗

同樣是「完美主義者」, 可是因為「完美」的定義有別而不一樣.
雙魚和處女有說是「互相吸引又互相排斥的一對」.

唉!

現實與期待的必有落差. 我已學會叫自己不要失望，因為已在意料之內.

Here we go again...

umm... I am very skeptical about this.

Flying Pan

Esther, Carmen and I went for brunch today. Flying Pan, a 24 hours brunch place at Old Bailey Street, Soho, Central. The food was good, but the service was quite lousy. Well, the comfort food is irresistable. Despite the poor service, I will go again.

Monday's blue

The sky is grey.

Judging from the weather, it is going to rain soon. Depressing.
Anyway, Mondays are depressing.

Deep Breathe

Take it easy.

The whole episode is not as simple as thought. So, there are too many factors give negative effect on this. Well, instead of getting worry, just sit back and relax. Enjoy what is there.

Be happy!

Afterword...

就像礼拜天的brunch 一樣的comfort food. 沒有很特別的菜單, 但就是吃很舒服很滿足。最後來一杯蛇竇奶茶,令整頓午飯更完美。

我想, 若我的同伴一樣享受的話... 下回再續。

May be...

It just turned out to be another disappointing encounter.

Why am I so pessimistic all along?

This week

"Wednesday, wednesday, wednesday..." That's what I have in mind all day.

La la la love song

The tunes of the "Long Vacation" theme song is fading.

It was tiring mentally to move back home. Be it work or personal life. Although I was born and raise in this city, still I have to find my way to continue my living here again.

Instead of getting myself overwhelmed with reunion with friends, relatives, colleagues and neighbourhood. I chose to do it at my pace.

In the new phase of my life, I have found my pinch of spice to motivate myself to be a better me!

Letter "R"

Gonna miss Formosa

i thought i am going to leave without missing anybody or anything, but i realise lately, it is not true.

I miss my clients (nice ones), i miss my buddy colleagues, i miss my neighbourhood, i miss shops that i used to go...

i am gonna miss my freedom too...

70s Flower Power

Yap, that's the party.

Second biggest revenge

Best moment of the month.

I have been so depressed this month, simply because I felt inferior in front of the banana. Sure banana got pissed by now since we have done a deal without his acknowledgement.

Better be pissed. The more you got pissed, the more I am happy.

Well prepared for the 70's party at Steph... my outfit, the champagn and a very upbeat mood.

Shots...

I am planning to bring the best memory of Taiwan with me.

So, I will bit farewell to every of my friends and neighbourhood!
My girls, Far Eastern Hotel, Nail Store, Video Rental, Security Guard, the Diner, certain people in the office...

Switch off

In the middle of a client discussion, I passed out for 1/10th of a second. The scene of our last kiss flashed in my mind.

Giggle

It feels good sitting on the clean floor.
Over the weekend, I setup my little theatre in the room.

Banana sat in front of me and said "I need a definite date. Your relocation documents are still with me." He ended his sentense with a wicked smile.

I returned the signed contract to HR. The relocation process has been kicked off. The mover, the tax auditor, the relocation agent are in touch with me. The secretary is preparing my corporate card, black berry, laptop, name card, etc. Everyone knows I am going to report duty on 1st August but the wicked balding man.

Who is deciding the date of my relocation now? Me or you? Before answering this, I can't help to giggle to myself.

Akeelah and the Bee

A touching quote from the movie...

[quoting Marianne Williamson]

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

I put a needle on the back of my hand and I have feeling in life again.

Being mean

I know a few who enjoy being mean to others. They simply born with the gene of being mean. Meanness makes them feel superior. Being mean, they feel you are stepped under their shoes.

I should find psychology books about meanness. Why are people being mean?

Banana wrote : "There is no perfect time for everyone". Suggesting me to delegate to someone, instead of asking everyone to fit my schedule.

You know what, that's what I want t you to say. I don't want to be in the conference call. It is just a waste of time. I need you to say, say it black and white. And now I have the golden medal from the emperor not to attend.

Well, good luck and I am moving to a winning team from the failing one...

Wow...

This blog is THE record of my Taipei days. Amazing. There are 300+ entries, through out the 2 years. Goods and bads are all recorded. I can imagine it is going to be fun to read them in the future.

I can't wait to go home. I can't help but wonder, would I be able to coop with the Hong Kong life?

p.s. happy birthday to 5pf.

Night market

I am counting my days in Taiwan.

Today, I walked along the night market next to my apartment. I paid extra attention to the surrounding. May be I start to miss the place. Recording places that I enjoy in Taiwan would be a good idea. Before I left the country, at least I can remind myself where I used to hang out and place that I should revisit before I leave.

Dear Blogger

Thanks for reading.
Today, I found one more among the few familar ones reading my entries.

Long weekend

Wow, finally, I have got some time off.

It started from early May when parents visited Taipei. Then I flew back with them to HK for the new VP induction, followed by the GTB training in Singapore. In the same week I returned to Taipei, Sarah visited and we spent the weekend for photo shooting. Being a model was not an easy job. After sending Sarah off on Monday, I flew off for holiday in States on the Wednesday of the very same week. Back from the time zone of 12 hours different on Monday night, I put myself together and went to work the next morning.

The four work days after the US trip felt longer than they really were. And then the long waited four days dragon boat holiday arrived.

Finally, I can sleep til whenever I like (for record, til 2pm on Sat and 11am on Sun). Being on my
own, I was watching TVB drama consecnon-stop. All time wireless online. Well, I did do something practical like two loads of laudry, cleaning the toilet, clearing my domestic paperwork (bills) and cooking for one.

I am planning to bring my newly bought book to the pool side of Shangri La tomorrow. Relax a bit and prepare for upcoming battles at work.

NYC

Thanks to the complimentary internet access of the hotel.
Can't wait to share a few better shots here.

the first blog entry created via black berry

Technology brings convenience. Wasn's able to connect in the past week, therefore no chance to update the blog. In fact, i have a lot to say since it has been one of the dramatic weeks that i have ever had. Details will be eleborated. At the moment, i rather keep things low profile.

New Asia VP induction

I am definitely a Holiday Goer.

2 days of brain washing session, free flow of alcohol and parent free evening in HK's five stars hotel... What else should I ask for?

A phone call received on Thursday evening. A call from Angel. A home call. It's time for a total home coming. And nothing can stop me.

What is the difference between Lolita and Punk

I was told Lolita enjoys taking some time out and indulges in role play. It is about the process of dressing as a character. Talk like one and live like one. When a session is done, everything gets back to normal.

But Punk is living the character, 24-7.

Everybody has a little fantasy to live as somebody else. A projection of image; Someone that one looks up to. Everyone is doing a bit of role play at work, at home or with friends.

For me, instead of the Lolita dress, I have my Armani suit, frameless glasses, high heels and branded handbag. I play a serious banker.

Walking backwards into the future

Imagine myself, walking backwards with my hands in the pocket of my burmuda short. Occassionally, I turn my head and check what is in front to avoid falling into holes.

If memories were as fragile as a notebook that can crash anytime without warning, I would pay better attention to moments of life. Otherwise, I could be walking backwards, facing a blank dimension.

Writing is the byproduct of Thinking

Reading from a random article in the magazine, the author says, "Writing is the byproduct of Thinking". This reminded me, I haven't been writing lately. It is reflected in the number of entries in the blog lately.

I am too numb to think. Or to be exact, too numb to record the dark side of my thinking. Or on the contrary, there are too many things in my mind and am too lazy to pick those worth writing.

For today, I just want to say, I slept at 2am last night in my new bed linen. This morning, I woke up without alarm. I felt good.

Nike Rock Star Workout Party

Invited by Jas, I got into the Nike Rockstar Party. I expected to be inspired by the dancers and to breath in the energy around.
A bit disappointed that Jamie King didn't perform. Here are some pic taken.
It's empty before the party started.
Swoosh everywhere...
Me wearing a neon heart. see my converse!? doesn't count as Nike even so.

Talking to no one

Browsing Friendster. Can't help clicking on his name as recent update is shown. I felt odd while knowing the fact that I will never talk to this person again.

Seeing his face in the picture, I really want to tell him I miss him.

I rather tell the wall about it because he won't give me a better respond. And that's why I decided not to talk to him.

生日快樂

The movie.

I have lots of expectation from the movie. Friends kept telling me get my kleenex prepared while watching.

Finally, I watched the DVD at home. Tearing all the way... Too many unspoken details touched me.

台灣小吃

最近愛上了盬酥雞檔的甜不辣.
鳴謝Kobe介紹的阿郎盬酥雞@通化.

下班後便不其然想起QQ的,脆而不膩的甜不辣,還有平均的灑在上面的椒盬...在通化夜市口下車,慢慢走到阿郎面前.因時間尚早,他在細心整理檔前的食物.我夾了四件甜不辣到小盤上,拜托阿郎加点九層塔下去炸.盛惠二十元.

看他把檔口弄得乾乾淨淨,每次都用吸油紙刷淨剩過炸物的小剷子才再用.對製作過程一絲不苟,讓我尊敬這位盬酥雞師父.

正因如此,他做的甜不辣才會脆而不膩.

實在甜不辣是超肥又沒有營養...

Laugh together

This is not something new. The clip has been viewed in Youtube for 11 million times. Watch again and destress from life.

Mii Family

The very first family photo that I post on the blog.

優皮士色彩的中產浪漫

集體回憶時間.
九十年代初, 大堆關於中產的電影出產. 小男人週記, 三人世界, 金枝玉葉, etc
這個年頭再沒有優皮士, 換來的是M型社會, 一係上流, 一係下流. 找個百萬富翁當男友要保持低調. 至少是十億男友才好張揚. 大量適婚女性未婚不一定因為男女比例只有49:51.
草根得很的"高朋滿坐"都穿起西裝, 圍在一起飲紅酒, 借故嘲笑草根扮中產. 聽起來有點像那個月入兩三萬, 猛話自已好鐘意聽胆機飲紅酒嗰個同學老公.
到底怎樣才算得上中產？香港最近有個官方定義, 月薪2萬到5萬港幣完全可以被示為中產. 除此以外, 教育背景, 專業, 生活模式也是定義因素之一.

講咁耐結論是... 下回再續.

連結 - 香港該如何應對“中產下流化”時代？

又買嘢...

又忍唔住買咗少少嘢.

Sunday blue

星期日黃昏過後總是悶悶不樂. 原因不用多講.
好不容易等到周末, 時間總是過得太快.
到了星期日黃昏, 是時候收拾心情上班. 之前一個礼拜的疲倦都還未恢復, 又要迎接下一個礼拜的來臨. 時間就是這樣過去, 到底我在等什麼?

As simple as that

I dropped my phone on the ground real hard. Everything was erased. Contacts and old SMS messages sent and received.
Sometimes, I wish my brain work that way as well.

米芝連三星主廚

噚日, 顧先生請食飯. 米芝連三星主廚@Sheraton Taipei.
到步才知這个是蠻exclusive的飯局. 在坐十位都是顧先生的友好, 我都略略見過.

侍應替我倒了香檳. 眼前一亮. 但是還是要等主人家舉杯, 才可呷第一口. 開始上菜, 第一道是不知名的前菜. 白酒來了. 然後是蠔湯, 上面用泡末蓋住, 保持溫度. 不錯. 接住是鵝肝松露餃子. 味道鮮甜, 但兩顆實在太少了. 再上的是魚, 一般而已. 然後是咖哩龍蝦. 好味, 如果可以配白飯更佳.

紅酒時間. 我有點醉意. 上牛肉之前, 來個sobert. 跟着就是甜品, 咖啡或茶. 盛惠每位9900, 不包酒水. 席間不時要你敬我我敬你, "酒是不可以自己飲的"...err...

Citysuper

Citysuper 是我的好朋友.
農曆年後都很忙, 這星期都八點才下班. 我知道我需要逛街解悶減壓.
不能再亂買, 我答應自己.

決定今晚去復興Sogo走走, 必要時到Citysuper花錢亦只是有限.
逛Citysuper跟逛一般百貨公司的分別是那份投入感. 推着購物車的一刻, 我便容入了店裡. 沒有售貨員喊"歡迎光臨", 我卻有賓至如歸的感覺. 富士的草毒賣399. 我把鼻子探過去嗅一嗅, 好幸福的香味呵... 這樣就夠了, 不用買. 霜降牛肉, 特價...79. 好肥美呀!明後天都不會在家吃飯, 還是買了一包, 留待礼拜六餸泡面吃. 走到賣水的兩排架子中間, 研究了好久, 結果嫌太貴沒買. 接下來是冰其淋. 選好便打開冰箱伸手去拿. 明治抹茶味, 50. 再拿了一包Wasabi青豆, 75元.
經過糖果架, 我停了下來仔細研究每一盒日本進口玩具糖果. 居然有"香港茶歺廳"玩具. 有本事的話, 仲有机会抽到奶茶壺連絲襪. 賣240, 太貴.

美中不足的就是走到收銀員面前, 他一定要你回答三个問題. 1. 有沒有Happy Go 集點咭; 2. 有沒有Citysuper 会員咭; 3. 要不要打統編. 沒有沒有不要. 好煩呀！

OK, 花了總共500有找. 開心晒!

自然定律

大自然的定律是永恆的.

理論1: 原來女人腰圍豐滿其中原因是壓カ太大.

理論2: 調查指出, 大多數男人的理想女性是擁有細小纖腰的.

結合以上的理論, 女士想最較受男士歡迎的話, 盡量讓自己遠離壓力. 即是不要讓自己工作太辛苦.

一個人的旅行

從新加坡到台北, 我都喜歡把自己打扮成隱形人 = Cap 帽+ iPod. 從前是害怕在街上碰到不該碰到的人, 但漸漸我愛上這樣的打扮. 好處是不用看人, 也不讓人看到; 不用聽, 也聽不到.

少了修飾外表的壓力, 亦避開別人為你一個人吃飯, 一個人睇电影給予的同情眼光. 一整天不用講超過八句話. 所有時間和空間都屬於我的. 可以非常集中, 去想自己的事情, 去看我喜歡的東西.

可能我已經不再需要同伴了.

選擇

今日去買咗塊手寫板, 以後可以用中文寫blog.

卅歲前後, 我有所領悟. 就係呢个世界有兩種人, 一. 有選擇既人; 二. 無選擇既人.
舉例: 聽日一定要早起番工, 無選擇, 好痛苦. 或者聽日放假, 可以選擇早点起身去嘆个早歺, 可以好享受. 只要一個人有得揀, 一切都變得暢快得多. 同樣道理可以apply落:-
返工 (如果老豆大把, 可以学Paris Hilton 咁敗家)
放假 (可以係上頭叫你交低槍同證件, 放下假)
結婚 (盲婚啞嫁!? 定係比外母迫?)
住埋 (要靠男人先有瓦遮頭?)
湊仔 (...)
上床 (...)
飲酒 (...)
陪笑 (主要指陪老細...)
玩bungy jump (有錢收另計)

tranquilizer

5pf always calmed my year-end/ new year frustrations by telling me "cos' your bday is approaching, therefore you find things around in chaos. Once you passed your bday, everything will be alright."

Starting all over again

Year of Pig is approaching.

While I was whining about receiving 5 wedding invitations for this year, I just got one cancellation.

I felt sorry for my good friend yet she admitted this might be a good move. It is better than becoming a divorcee two years later. Her case gave me another prospective of marriage, that is, marriage is not about the two people, but the two families. Yeah, marriage is a union, but the responsibility is just so big that I can't imagine at this point.

Having the 5 year relationship broken, everything is starting over again.

日出大地的乳酪蛋糕

the Holiday

Wise choice once again. I went to watch the movie solo so that I can be indulged into it.

Holiday, a romantic comedy. I cried over the comedy, as I couldn't agree more with the heroines. And that's why 5pf recommended the movie.

Couldn't help my tear over what the heroine, Iris said...

"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and suprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you."

"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little peices of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."


P.S. Jude Law is so handsome that my heart is tweaking.

Is it a dream??

Everything still seems surreal to me.

Talking about Norah Jones again

I remember I talked about it before in the blog.

You may have forgotten, but my memory is still fresh.
Norah Jones' third album just released. The familiar Jones style ballad jazz. Intro comes with piano and then her deep sexy vocal. I felt heavy in my heart and goosebumps grew all over my arms.

It is an reaction to the memory of you and your "fairy tales", remembering your effort to impress me by picking the best looking shirt, pants and shoes for our dinner date. Looking at me with your watery eyes, you said you could count on me bringing you little gift almost everytime we met. You said, only until you got the courage, I broke the news of leaving for Taipei. Otherwise, we would be an item.

And I won't forget the awkwardness when I last met you.

Dictionary

There is dictionary for everything. Learning never stops.

Urban dictionary
found when i googled "McDreamy"
http://www.urbandictionary.com/

Coxford Singlish Dictionary
found when i googled "LoBang"
http://www.talkingcock.com/html/lexec.php?op=LexView&lexicon=lexicon

One good reason for why it's great to turn 30

Reason #1

Turning 30 means you're more mature, but still young enough to be HOTHOT HOT. No wrinkles until at least after 40!

Quoted from S.poon

I can't breath, I can't breath

I was in pain and I cried.
Crying until I was out of breathe.
A brown paper bag might help to get back my breathe.

The lost hurt me. And it still hurts.

I imagined. I was to catch you unexpected.
How would we act? I wondered.
You know what? I would just pretend that I had never known you.

Grey's Anatomy

It's a disease.
I am addicted to watching the drama Grey's Anatomy.

Whenever I am not occupied, I think of watching it. It is worse then LOST and Sex & the City... Now you see why my blog is not updated for long...

New Toy

It costs less than a discounted Sergio Rossi shoe (yes, one shoe) or a handle of a Tod's leather bag, but the joy is definitely more than double. It is a petite silver Giant (Taiwanese Brand) foldable bike.

I intend to ride it to work, to visit my friends (mainly steph & jessie), to eat brunch, to go shopping... It also helps me to befriend with the enviornment and to keep fit. Simply having the thought of it is fun!

Villa 32

A day with back to back schedule. Felina's yoga class, hair cut, facial and hotspring cum dinner at Villa 32.

See the shots taken at Villa 32:

Spoiled kid

Hello~ strawberry over Moet on a Thursday night?

Ugly girl

Chatting with a friend over lunch.

I suggested her to remove her glasses and put some make up on. That would make her look good, I thought. She shook her head and said her boyfriend gave very negative comments whenever she put on make up. He said she looks ugly with make up.

Whenever she wore a skirt, he complained about her walking too slow.

I wonder who on earth does not appreciate pretty lady. The boyfriend's comment is just about jealousy and insecurity. I sympathise the girl. Just as other sympathise me not having a partner for life yet.

Story of my Dom Perignon 98

I have bought my very first bottle and decided to pop it open at the next happy occassion.
Yeah, there wil be a next happy occassion.

Isn't it an optimistic act?

Holiday

我跟你講...

I am going to sit in front of my laptop for at least 2 hours non-stop (without any sort of interuption).

Purple

Taken from Grand Hyatt Taipei

眉來眼去

Without anybody noticed, the first time happened on the dancefloor while she was dancing with someone else.

The second time, she was holding hands with someone else.

And the third time, she was making out with another person.

He saw her as a challenge. He decided to seduce her and win her over.

1st sunrise

the very first sun rise of the island in 2007 taken at Hua Lian.

along with the witness of first sun rise, I have prepared a list of new year wishes/ resolutions to share. watch out for the next entry.

2007

Reborn.

p.s. Dear Vegetarian, there is no need for you to kill life unnecessarily!

Marsian and Venetian

Women love talking; Men love watching TV.

That's why we ended up watching Doha sailing game on TV that night with little conversation in between.

Merry Christmas

Beef steak, pesto for my pasta, some jamon. That's what I got for my christmas evening.
Everything turned out to be perfect, besides I only found out when I got home I ran out of spaghetti. So I made "pesto al instand noodles" instead.

Merry Christmas.

Turn left, turn right

Both of them were each carrying a heavy rock on their back, turned and walked the opposite directions. She turned her head one or two times to look for assistance, but not successful as he was walking further and further away without turning his head.

Right
Became deaf and dumb since carrying the rock. Fighting alone, finding justifications for the instance love and hate. Without any alternative, hypnotise oneself during weekdays nine to seven.

Left
Waking up, feeling human again after the instance love and hate. Isolated oneself from the outside world in confusion of the bitter sweet resulted from falling in love with a self-projection.

Both would carry their rock until they reach a desserted place, then leave it there when no one sees and move on.

Christmas 2006, Taipei

There would be only holiday mood, if there is a holiday. No holiday, no mood.
Still, I tried to kept my schedule occupied. Through out the day, I was busy thinking.

Self Hypnosis

That is it.

I fell into self hyponosis in the train. My eyes were set on the sunset outside the window. I felt like riding on a flying carpet all the way to Dan Shui.

我想要學會自我催眠　痛覺會少一些

自我催眠 by 羅志祥

P.S. Cafe

5pf and D brought me to P.S. Cafe at Harden Road. A hidden cafe in the middle of "quiet" Dempsey Road. I knew I am going to like the place when I stepped into the cafe. "Why can't I stay in this country for longer?" I asked in slience.

I ordered myself a "Coconut and Caraway Waffles" starked with saute bananas and crispy bacon dizzled with natural maple. Can anything be more sinful than this? Then I set my eyes with the decorated pine tree in the middle of the cafe, appreciating the fragrance of fresh pine. Yeah, we have sat there for as long as we want. That's simply luxurious!

The hell with love

the very first poem in the book "The Hell with Love - poems to mend a broken heart"

you fit into me

you fit into me
like a hook into an eye

a fish hook
an open eye

Margaret Atwood

is that me?

Looking into the mirror, I asked, is that me?
Could I be more calm?

I learnt. I grew.

Why I hate Singapore (as reminded this round)

I know, it is a bit too much of evaluation after the trip. Promise this is the last piece about my trip. I tend to remember the plus rather than the minus, be it for boys or for places. I was all excited about my Nth visit to Singapore. Not long after I have arrived, I was reminded to my face why I hate Singapore.

• Queuing at Cold Storage. The super slow cashier took 5 mins, counting the thousand cents paid by the one customer in front of me.
• Insecure Taxi driver who showed impatient about waiting on meter for 3 mins.
• Pouring in the midst of day and all cabs are "ON CALL".
• At 3:45pm, 8 people were in line for special customer service at DBS Orchard branch. At 4:45pm, still 8 people in the line.
• Smell old coconut oil cooking banana at the underpass connecting Tang's, Scott Rd and Orchard Rd.
• Bad traffic into Orchard combine with lay-back cab driver.
• Limited TV channels to flip. Chanel 5, Chanel 8 and Chanel News Asia.

I wish I could stay longer to find out more to add to the list above.

Tour of self discovery

Every visit to Singapore, I learnt something new. Here are things that I have learnt this round: -

• Sailing race live on TV could not be borer than Diving.
• Starhub sucks.
• Lychee martine at Wine Bar is still the best.
• I am different (or outright weird) and that is not my fault.
• Mistakes shouldn't be repeated.
• 5 days in Singapore is still too short to do everything I wanted.
• The feeling is super good having a hair do before wedding banquet.
• Get the hint early and stop pursuing (point well shared with S.H. who learnt from the same mistake)
• (this is nothing new but is quadruple confirmed) a GOOD friend is someone who is still willing to lend her listening ears and give constructive comments even if she knew it is the same story repeated for the seventh time.

LOST in the air

Taxi uncle confirmed that the SMS services provided by Starhub and Singtel are not reliable lately. Mostly because of the migration from 3G to 4G. Delay or message lost happened frequently. Not sure where the source of information came from, but who cares.

Be it true or be it a white lie from a kind hearted person, it makes little difference to me. Sometimes, some messages better kept unread. It could be good to everyone if it was just lost in the air.

7:30 am

I am impressed by myself for getting up as per scheduled. As Jasmine said, if you ought to do something, you will be able to do it. It's all depend on your will power within.

Wireless @ SG

can't wait to get connected today. So I left hotel earlier than scheduled and now I am sitting at Starbucks enjoying the "wireless @ SG" for free. It took me at least 20 mins to figure out how to get connect.

I have to admit, the feeling of getting "connect" is soooo.... warm. Opps, that's sick.

If I were living in the world of Harry Potter

Sitting in front of the familiar big white wall, I am in pain.

I am born to be a muggle and it is proven for dozon failures of running through the same white wall. Repeatedly, it resulted to be me sitting on the ground in helplessness, bleeding in pain. But I am a stubbornly persistant person and believe I could be the ultimate invisible man.

I kept practising the magic of walking through the wall and hope one day I can do it. I thought I have learnt it in the past 15 months and should be able to handle it.

Okay, I annouce another failure. The injury is not as bad as before. May be the skin is thinkened as I grow old.

My Little Darling, Kevin

Second episode

I would rate the show three and a half stars out of five. It was just like a movie with lots of promotion which made you excited and longing to get into the theatre and to enjoy the show. All the plots were publisized and no surprise left. As the show went on, each move was within calculation. Things ought to happen happened, only with a little delay. All the entertainment and joy was expected in the show and was confined during the show. It is not gonna be a trilogy. That’s the way it is.

After the show, everybody went home as usual. No take away, no afterthought nor further discussion on the plot is needed.

Oct 1999

I started working for the bank in October 1999. VW was my direct senior. He has been my mentor and my role model always. Today, He called and told me, he is going to resign tomorrow. My heart sinked.

Although he will no longer be working in the same organisation, we will still be good brother-sister.

Christmas Greetings from Daan Park

Get set, Go

I am going to spread my wings in 4 days time. A wedding, a reunion and a holiday to my second home.

Things may be a bit different this time, but there is still the same level of excitement. I am busy getting prepared over the weekend. Haircut, facial, manicure, christmas shopping etc. I even got myself a book to read for the trip. I am so excited to head on a holiday which I am going to spend every minute the way I want, with people that I love and at places that I like.

Yeah, remember to get my camera charged and it's time to bring my suitcase out for packing.

期待是最美麗的.

無風的秋季

The weather reminded me the last time I receive flowers.

陽光 滲著微塵 輕輕暖透 我的心
床邊 縱是無人 收到你這信 亦最吸引
像你的聲音 自遠而近 我是份外入神
逝去的光陰 又再重溫 故事段段動人
難忘是當天你 在無風的秋季
別去的一剎 留低的一切
但這一封信無聲的飄到
像往昔一切 回憶的洗禮
這感覺 是最珍貴
黃昏 看著途人
彷彿聽見你關心
如今縱沒同行
收到你這信 亦最吸引
像你的聲音自遠而近 我是份外入神
逝去的光陰又再重溫 故事段段動人

溫泉蛋

蛋白加熱至攝氏56 度開始黏稠, 58 度白濁化, 62 度果凍化, 80 度完全熱凝固。
另一方面，蛋黃自攝氏64 度開始黏稠, 70 度完全熱凝固. 所以若以這些溫度資訊來看，在攝氏70 至75 度水中煮蛋就可獲得溫泉蛋。

shake head

I shake head at myself.

Why am I so frustrated?
What I should do is, to take a deep breathe, think and then talk.

Dance like no one is watching

Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you'll never be hurt.
Dance like no one is watching.

Quote from Satchel Paige

Dinner tonight

looks good, huh!?

Therapy

Three therapies for my stressful work days this week (appology for those who works with me as I am a total bitch this week).

Tuesday : Moet, moet and shanghainese. Great ambience at MP, a champagn guy never leave our circle more than 10 meters, getting ready to refill our empty glasses. Running here and there checking out the secret VIP areas of the place was fun.

Wednesday : Back Acrh at yoga. My lower back was screaming while I worked to raise it. Once I straightened my arms and bended my upper body, I felt like an aeroplane just took off from the running, leaving the rough path and reveal to a bright blue sky.

Thursday : Laughing out loud. Watching "Whose line is it anyway" live at Carnegies, I was laughing so hard. After the show, I was walking home alone and realised that I have not laugh for a long time. What a destressed!