How would a sister not love a sister?
Even if it is gonna be painful, you will love hers as she is your best friend on earth in this life. You will be willing to do anything for her, just because.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Blame no one
should I be able to squeeze time for self reflection, I should be about to write. Just that I haven't put the effort of doing so yet.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
It's about paying attention to my feeling
i realise another reason for lacking of blog entry...
I didn't pay much attention to my feeling.
I didn't pay much attention to my feeling.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Saturday, August 08, 2009
The biggest loser
I am happy because there is a break through in my weight level after a long plateau. My hard work counts.
My BMI was 17.7!!!
Well, better jog tomorrow as a new round of hot spring egg will be in production.
My BMI was 17.7!!!
Well, better jog tomorrow as a new round of hot spring egg will be in production.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
hung out with an old timer. both of us have been away from home for a good while. sitting next to each other we talked about north east south west, as if we were not apart for too long.
we went to lit class together back then, both of us have once written, and yet not back home.
it is sad to realise, the room for imagination, room to think, room for reflection has been killed back home. as if I step back to the concrete and can't affort to daydream anymore. i scream for a rescue, an escape...
at home, i have many roles to play and i have to be the big sister everybody look up to... i am back to monotone, colourless...
and daydream is me. and i can't do that anymore at home... i can't be myself!? or can i do something about it?
we went to lit class together back then, both of us have once written, and yet not back home.
it is sad to realise, the room for imagination, room to think, room for reflection has been killed back home. as if I step back to the concrete and can't affort to daydream anymore. i scream for a rescue, an escape...
at home, i have many roles to play and i have to be the big sister everybody look up to... i am back to monotone, colourless...
and daydream is me. and i can't do that anymore at home... i can't be myself!? or can i do something about it?
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Blog
Yes, when I was still in the air, I had plenty of ideas about updating my blog. And once I touched down on the land of HKSAR... the air pressure seemed to suppressed all of them. And they are now all gone.
I have Hong Kong done to me?
I have Hong Kong done to me?
Sunday, July 19, 2009
A pleasant surprise II
D is back in town this weekend, without advance noticed. We had drink+dinner+drink together today. I was so happy. I just enjoy the chit chat about everyday life and my view on things and of course some tears on him being a silly pig.
He is the best!
He is the best!
Monday, July 13, 2009
feeling a bit dizzy in the store, i pointed at this this and that to the sales girl.
i was brought to the fitting room... and tried on the items...
i heard myself saying to the sales girl, this one i want, and this, this and that...
i took my plastic out. At a swipe, there goes a week of salary...
i suspect, i was drugged and led to the store unconscious.
i was brought to the fitting room... and tried on the items...
i heard myself saying to the sales girl, this one i want, and this, this and that...
i took my plastic out. At a swipe, there goes a week of salary...
i suspect, i was drugged and led to the store unconscious.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
4am
I know I wont talk to you anymore. It's about defending my dignity.
But I have to confess the fact that, at 4am... under much alcohol influence,
I look at you in black and white.
But I have to confess the fact that, at 4am... under much alcohol influence,
I look at you in black and white.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
I can't care less
Hey, I am living my life. What the hell!?!?
I run, I workout and I eat... I drink and I am trying to be slim.
Antiaging... stay young...
I hate my job but I need my salary. I love weekend but it is always too short.
I could never go to work on time, but I always stay overtime... breakeven for the bank
I need solo time, but I live with Mom... then what to do??
No more leather shoes or handbags... sorry to Lane Crawlford...
Many trips... congrats CX, Dragon Air and SQ.... seems not used to other airlines anymore...
No more bonus next year... still need to pay for my lean skin....
I run, I workout and I eat... I drink and I am trying to be slim.
Antiaging... stay young...
I hate my job but I need my salary. I love weekend but it is always too short.
I could never go to work on time, but I always stay overtime... breakeven for the bank
I need solo time, but I live with Mom... then what to do??
No more leather shoes or handbags... sorry to Lane Crawlford...
Many trips... congrats CX, Dragon Air and SQ.... seems not used to other airlines anymore...
No more bonus next year... still need to pay for my lean skin....
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Mentor talks
I have two very meaningful talks with my mentors. One focuses on work and the other on life and relationship.
I am lucky to have two such generous mentors to give me guidiance.
I am lucky to have two such generous mentors to give me guidiance.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Thursday, June 04, 2009
disappear
no matter one appears to be strong and confidence about oneself, one could be insecured at times. Someone deems to be important in one's life... disappear one day... one couldn't help but wonder where the hell did that someone has gone? and why is the reason for the disappearence.
While busy thinking of a possibly never answered question... one has neglected other important ones are actually right here.
Look no where, but now here.
While busy thinking of a possibly never answered question... one has neglected other important ones are actually right here.
Look no where, but now here.
Monday, June 01, 2009
Growing
The breeze was refreshing at 2am, especially after the rain. The clock ticked faster than usual. From application of Halal cert to ebay charges on toy bidding, from mail ordered bride to 30K gold rolex, this boy was so enthusiastic about sharing his stories of life.
I wished the Merlion water spouting would go on and no one was reminded about the time.
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I admit I was at one moment fragile. This was the Nth time passing the ECP. The green kept passing by my side and so did the laughters. Everytime, I moved on alone with courage, and this was no exception.
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With 5pf, I enjoyed being mischievous, to annoy her until she rolled eyes. I missed hearing her whining in 1 or 2 pitches higher, just like the old days.
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The unfinished business still left unfinished. May be we are just indifference to it and each other.
I wished the Merlion water spouting would go on and no one was reminded about the time.
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I admit I was at one moment fragile. This was the Nth time passing the ECP. The green kept passing by my side and so did the laughters. Everytime, I moved on alone with courage, and this was no exception.
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With 5pf, I enjoyed being mischievous, to annoy her until she rolled eyes. I missed hearing her whining in 1 or 2 pitches higher, just like the old days.
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The unfinished business still left unfinished. May be we are just indifference to it and each other.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Sometimes living in a lie is better than facing the truth.
When I was walking to work today, I suddenly realised, my other half could be a person with potential but this potential not neccessarily be discovered before madly in love...
This should have been learnt decade ago... that's why I always say I am a slow learner...
When I was walking to work today, I suddenly realised, my other half could be a person with potential but this potential not neccessarily be discovered before madly in love...
This should have been learnt decade ago... that's why I always say I am a slow learner...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
It takes almost a year for me to forgive him. Forgive him for being imature and being irresponsible. I have punished him my way. I thought it was time to forgive and forget.
The devil knocked on the door just now.
I turned my back and refused to let the history repeat. That is the least I can do to save the mended friendship from going down the drain.
The devil knocked on the door just now.
I turned my back and refused to let the history repeat. That is the least I can do to save the mended friendship from going down the drain.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
22nd entry
It's already May, and there are only 21 entries for the year so far.
I am skimming Fuigo's blog and this boy has been keeping up with the good job ever since. I feel shameful.
I was eating my pack of imported salt and vinegar potato chips that carries 200Kcal. Well, I was happily doing that because I have earnt a quota of 139 Kcal from jogging today.
Flying to Singapore... time for me to sink in. I need to be away from people, to think.
I am skimming Fuigo's blog and this boy has been keeping up with the good job ever since. I feel shameful.
I was eating my pack of imported salt and vinegar potato chips that carries 200Kcal. Well, I was happily doing that because I have earnt a quota of 139 Kcal from jogging today.
Flying to Singapore... time for me to sink in. I need to be away from people, to think.
Monday, May 04, 2009
Primary sweetheart'S'
Time flies. Thanks to search engine, We reconnect after almost two decades.
One thing in common after all these years, without an exception, they all become chubby pre-middle aged men. Probably they all are high in cholesterol.
I wonder, with such appearance, he must be a contained man. Happily settled with a decent job and a better half. No worries about his outlook... and not yet worry about his health...
So, on the other hand, half of the well built, muscular six-packs men out there would turn out to be gay and half are not ready to settle down. And what is the moral behind this?
One thing in common after all these years, without an exception, they all become chubby pre-middle aged men. Probably they all are high in cholesterol.
I wonder, with such appearance, he must be a contained man. Happily settled with a decent job and a better half. No worries about his outlook... and not yet worry about his health...
So, on the other hand, half of the well built, muscular six-packs men out there would turn out to be gay and half are not ready to settle down. And what is the moral behind this?
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Bring home the taste with me
I might not be the only one on earth doing so.
I'd always love to not only enjoy the taste of local food when travelling, but also bringing them home as much as possible. In a way, this allows me to linger in the bit and pieces of the foreign land advanture...
From the recent trip, Ming and I purposely made trips to local markets in Paris and London. And we were happy about the findings. We bought different kinds of olives, sea salt with herbs, parma ham, salami, macarons and chips. The other day after I returned, I sat myself at the table with a plate of a bit of everything, sweet and salty, along with half bottle of merlot. The taste simply brought me back to the sunny day in Paris...
I'd always love to not only enjoy the taste of local food when travelling, but also bringing them home as much as possible. In a way, this allows me to linger in the bit and pieces of the foreign land advanture...
From the recent trip, Ming and I purposely made trips to local markets in Paris and London. And we were happy about the findings. We bought different kinds of olives, sea salt with herbs, parma ham, salami, macarons and chips. The other day after I returned, I sat myself at the table with a plate of a bit of everything, sweet and salty, along with half bottle of merlot. The taste simply brought me back to the sunny day in Paris...
Monday, April 27, 2009
Eat Oyster in Paris
As told by the old French lady who sat next to us, Garnier is the second best oyster place in Paris. Near to Galeries Lafayette/ Printemp (see address below).
We chosed to sit at the Oyster Bar as it is almost EUR4 cheaper per 6 pieces and the service is actually better (given the two black faced waiter and waitress in the dining room). Besides oyster, Bulot is also very crisp and sweet, it is just sinful when it is covered with mayonnaise...
Some more oyster recommendations from the internet (忠道的巴黎小站)
喫生蠔:-
Garnier, 111 rue St-Lazare, 75008. Tel: 01 43 87 50 40-
Brasserie Lorraine, 2-4 place des Ternes, 75008. Metro Ternes (near Arc de Triomphe). Tel: 01 56 21 22 00-
La Cagouille, 10-12 place Constantin, 75014. Metro Gaite (near St. Honour) Tel: 01 43 22 09 02
We chosed to sit at the Oyster Bar as it is almost EUR4 cheaper per 6 pieces and the service is actually better (given the two black faced waiter and waitress in the dining room). Besides oyster, Bulot is also very crisp and sweet, it is just sinful when it is covered with mayonnaise...
Some more oyster recommendations from the internet (忠道的巴黎小站)
喫生蠔:-
Garnier, 111 rue St-Lazare, 75008. Tel: 01 43 87 50 40-
Brasserie Lorraine, 2-4 place des Ternes, 75008. Metro Ternes (near Arc de Triomphe). Tel: 01 56 21 22 00-
La Cagouille, 10-12 place Constantin, 75014. Metro Gaite (near St. Honour) Tel: 01 43 22 09 02
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Life less ordinary
Among the ordinary life, I'd love to be less ordinary. A friend said, my stories in life repeated itself over and over again.
Well, I wish my life is ordinary yet less ordinary and I am trying to live one.
Or, this is just a way to comfort myself... about not having a life that everyone besides me is expecting, that is, to meet the "right" guy, date, get marry, give birth to a cute little one, working hard to raise him/her...
Is it important to live upto people's expectation or simply have an enjoyable life with a worry-free future!?
Well, I wish my life is ordinary yet less ordinary and I am trying to live one.
Or, this is just a way to comfort myself... about not having a life that everyone besides me is expecting, that is, to meet the "right" guy, date, get marry, give birth to a cute little one, working hard to raise him/her...
Is it important to live upto people's expectation or simply have an enjoyable life with a worry-free future!?
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Nachos
This is the second time I made my very own salsa. Tomato, onion, cilantro and avocado. Fattening yet delicious!!!
Monday, March 23, 2009
I ask myself
Is it really no time to think or refuse to think? Is it really no time to meet new friends or refuse to meet new friends? Is it really no time to care about my parents or refuse to spend time? Is it really no time to workout or too lazy?
Why missing life in the past? The present is always not as good? Or I just chose to remember just the best part of the past.
I was day dreaming about eating at Epicurious. Why didn't I visit my favourite restaurant in Singapore in the last five visits? Errr......
Why missing life in the past? The present is always not as good? Or I just chose to remember just the best part of the past.
I was day dreaming about eating at Epicurious. Why didn't I visit my favourite restaurant in Singapore in the last five visits? Errr......
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Take care of myself... sign of aging...
For some reasons, I am very motivated to exercise this week. Gym on Thursday and Friday. Yoga on Saturday and jogging at Bowen Road on Sunday.
At the same time, I ate a lot. Next week must cut down on the food.
One more resolution, it is to sleep early and have seven and half hours of sleep.
At the same time, I ate a lot. Next week must cut down on the food.
One more resolution, it is to sleep early and have seven and half hours of sleep.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Getting there
There were at least 2 people told me that I looked slimmer... Yeah, my hard work pays!
Donna said, I have the best combination of work out to loss weight. Flex, strength and cardio. I wish I could exercise more on strength on my own.
Just that the mood at work is a bit down, I couldn't motivate myself to go gym at lunch (rather do more work at my desk)...
So looking forward to my jog around the Eiffel Tower.
Donna said, I have the best combination of work out to loss weight. Flex, strength and cardio. I wish I could exercise more on strength on my own.
Just that the mood at work is a bit down, I couldn't motivate myself to go gym at lunch (rather do more work at my desk)...
So looking forward to my jog around the Eiffel Tower.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
32
I have set myself a goal to meet on my 32nd birthday. Well, it is almost there. One KG to go. I know, I can do it and I did it!
I am my own biggest loser... reduced by 7% of my total weight. Now, it's time for tonning and get ready for summer!
I am my own biggest loser... reduced by 7% of my total weight. Now, it's time for tonning and get ready for summer!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Goodbye 7 pounds...
As of now, I have got rid of 7 pounds and I am happy!
3 more to go by my bday and I am ready to rock!
Ha...
I want a spa to pamper myself badly... if I got my big B this year...
3 more to go by my bday and I am ready to rock!
Ha...
I want a spa to pamper myself badly... if I got my big B this year...
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
5 senses
Sight, Hearing, Taste, Smell, Touch...
It is a pleasure to share the five senses with my good friend. A beautiful song, delicate petite pastries, soft cotton pajama, cute wooden apples, funny soda candies, an almost perfect recipe of Vongole, a 3D paper snow ball...
It would be nice if they could be hand delivered by ourselves, if not, by post.
It is a pleasure to share the five senses with my good friend. A beautiful song, delicate petite pastries, soft cotton pajama, cute wooden apples, funny soda candies, an almost perfect recipe of Vongole, a 3D paper snow ball...
It would be nice if they could be hand delivered by ourselves, if not, by post.
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Bad date with a great movie
I could imagine... there is never a "great date with a bad movie", cos if you have a great date, I suppose you won't care if the theatre was not playing the right movie.
Well, today I had a bad date with a great movie.
I admit I didn't go with an open heart. We suppose to meet at 2pm and watch movie at 5pm. To shorten the free time before movie, I push the meeting from 2 to 3:30, bad!
We sat down for a coffee at an alfresco cafe under a fine weather. He ordered the second one which wasn't served after 20 mins. Right after he chased the waiter for the third time, I suggested to cancel the drink and go for a walk at the mall instead. Man... I just can't sit there and talk anymore. Bad bad!!
But, I must admit, the movie was good.
Well, today I had a bad date with a great movie.
I admit I didn't go with an open heart. We suppose to meet at 2pm and watch movie at 5pm. To shorten the free time before movie, I push the meeting from 2 to 3:30, bad!
We sat down for a coffee at an alfresco cafe under a fine weather. He ordered the second one which wasn't served after 20 mins. Right after he chased the waiter for the third time, I suggested to cancel the drink and go for a walk at the mall instead. Man... I just can't sit there and talk anymore. Bad bad!!
But, I must admit, the movie was good.
Friday, January 02, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Listen to my heart
Less than 20 mins to 2009.
A number of memorable things have happened to me in 2008. All in all, it was an interesting year. The road in front is not easy but yet I am full of faith. The most important thing to me is I should continue my journey by listening to my heart.
I am not a material girl, I am a dreamy romantic pisces.
A number of memorable things have happened to me in 2008. All in all, it was an interesting year. The road in front is not easy but yet I am full of faith. The most important thing to me is I should continue my journey by listening to my heart.
I am not a material girl, I am a dreamy romantic pisces.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Balance
I am giving it a try. Learn to love without love at first sight. Not sure if it's gonna work out. Give both him and myself a chance.
Plenty of daydream... to balance my mind. Forgive me, cos' I really need it.
Plenty of daydream... to balance my mind. Forgive me, cos' I really need it.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
that's life
if not the phone was by my side, i won't got the message. if not I got the message, i won't go out. And i won't be sent home by uncle...
smile.
seems that 2008 christmas is going to be a good one...
smile.
seems that 2008 christmas is going to be a good one...
Friday, December 12, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
妄想
好鬼死耐無試過個心跳得咁快。可能有十幾廿年吧!
喂, 真係好鬼難得咁興奮。青春真係無價。我響度懷疑某人根本係特登將張相舖比本小姐睇嘅。哈哈,似唔似「思覺失調」嗰d人,話新聞響度講緊佢呀。
我同自已講,肥同肚腩係唔可以再出現嘅!再唔做d嘢就真係死咗唔駛恨。。。
喂, 真係好鬼難得咁興奮。青春真係無價。我響度懷疑某人根本係特登將張相舖比本小姐睇嘅。哈哈,似唔似「思覺失調」嗰d人,話新聞響度講緊佢呀。
我同自已講,肥同肚腩係唔可以再出現嘅!再唔做d嘢就真係死咗唔駛恨。。。
Monday, December 08, 2008
heart beat
In one evening, I had my heart beat fast twice. Second time beated 10 times faster and still beating fast now. OMG!
Chemistry Class
I was reading my book on the ferry to China. The paragraph about "Dopamine" caught my attention. I read repeatedly, it said " Basically, anything the brain perceives to be enjoyable will cause dopamine to lock onto brain cells and build a permanent memory trace of where pleasure comes from."
I am glad to know that at least I know the source of my urge.
- findings from wikipedia on Dopamine
Dopamine is commonly associated with the pleasure system of the brain, providing feelings of enjoyment and reinforcement to motivate a person proactively to perform certain activities. Dopamine is released by naturally rewarding experiences such as food, sex, drugs, and neutral stimuli that become associated with them.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
It's complicated
There was no goodbye at the door. Never mention about our next encounter, as none of us knows what will happen next.
I wish, if there is a next, everything could be more simple and straight forward.
I wish, if there is a next, everything could be more simple and straight forward.
Blank
The clock is ticking... the world is turning...
In 1/10 sec, I passed out...
I have done a good job controlling my emotion through out these days. Yet, my true feeling is somehow confined. Is this the price of growing up?
In 1/10 sec, I passed out...
I have done a good job controlling my emotion through out these days. Yet, my true feeling is somehow confined. Is this the price of growing up?
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Shall we dance
I had a few glasses over dinner. With a light hearted mood, I danced along with the host to Michael Buble. I, know nothing about dancing, just followed the lead and turn carefree. I was laughing and the audiance applaused.
Am I ready to let go of the control I am obssessed with and follow the lead?
Am I ready to let go of the control I am obssessed with and follow the lead?
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Proof of Age

The colour of this bus ticket is fading, so is my memory. The typings from the vending machine could bearly be read... 16:14... 20AU... 90c...
Thought I was able to keep my memory by holding on to this tiny slip, yet I can't do much to avoid the image turn blurry. At the end, the tiny slip is just a waste when no more memory is attached to it.
May be this is the best way to set me free from clinging to the past.
Monday, December 01, 2008
Sleep walk
Not then, but now.
My memory is fading, probably because of age. I couldn't keep track of when exactly was the last time we met. Two or three years ago? No matter how hard I tried to search my files in my brain, I couldn't be sure about it.
It is just weird, we must wait even longer to see each other for the next time. Well, better than never... or may be never. Who knows?
And I rather stay in dream.
My memory is fading, probably because of age. I couldn't keep track of when exactly was the last time we met. Two or three years ago? No matter how hard I tried to search my files in my brain, I couldn't be sure about it.
It is just weird, we must wait even longer to see each other for the next time. Well, better than never... or may be never. Who knows?
And I rather stay in dream.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Book
Kept thinking, but no action. I must not give myself a chance to look down on me. I am going to bring all entries out of the virtual space. It is safer to be in my bookshelf.
Will get it done by Christmas 2008.
Will get it done by Christmas 2008.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Silent rebel
I am still upset about what had happened and the way matter was handled. Now, I am making a stand to show that I have a choice. I chose not to show up and not to be supportive. I lied and we both knew. A lie that you and I chose to believe.
This marked an end and the friendship went flatline.
This marked an end and the friendship went flatline.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
White Lie
As I grew old, I realise, sometimes telling a white lie makes no harm. Everybody will be happy. The reality is too cruel to be faced, why put it on the table? With one white lie, everybody has their staircase to step down elegantly... why not?
I am sad, no matter what. If so, I prefer to make other's life easier.
Going to Singapore is a good excuse to escape.
I am sad, no matter what. If so, I prefer to make other's life easier.
Going to Singapore is a good excuse to escape.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Outside of the circle
I was told I belong to the outside. We met outside of his circle and at the end, he will go back into it. Good description. Now, I understand.
I am just passer-by, not important, at all...
I am just passer-by, not important, at all...
Sunday, October 26, 2008
In a gay club
Only until I experienced it, I realise how much fun it is when I am 100% care free and be my true self at clubbing.
I actually joined the conversation of the guys standing next to me. I ran into people from all paves, speaking Taiwanese, French, Japanese... We were all enjoying the company of each other and laughing so hard.
I actually joined the conversation of the guys standing next to me. I ran into people from all paves, speaking Taiwanese, French, Japanese... We were all enjoying the company of each other and laughing so hard.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
About friendship
It was over the top of my tolerance level. I gave him a piece of my mind via sms. May be I am done with putting up with his "being spontaneous".
I let go of another other one...
I let go of another other one...
Monday, October 20, 2008
remember with my taste bud
A friend asked me what good is Singapore? This is one of the FAQs to me. I realise, not too many people agree with me on good food in Singapore. No no no, not Pepper crabs...
Black carrot cake in the very warm hawker centre, Curry mee at Hong Lim after the long queue, Fishball noodle late night at Newton, Roti prata at River Valley before rolling home after zouk, Green eggs at Epicurious along river side on a lazy Sunday, a Teh from the little tuck shop behind Suntec at snaking hour, Chicken rice at Chin Chin Purvis St..
The taste is unique to me as my very own Singapore memories to come with.
Black carrot cake in the very warm hawker centre, Curry mee at Hong Lim after the long queue, Fishball noodle late night at Newton, Roti prata at River Valley before rolling home after zouk, Green eggs at Epicurious along river side on a lazy Sunday, a Teh from the little tuck shop behind Suntec at snaking hour, Chicken rice at Chin Chin Purvis St..
The taste is unique to me as my very own Singapore memories to come with.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
2009
I have been thinking of spending 1 week each in Shanghai and Beijing next year and wonder around the cities, alone or with Ming if she is also up for it.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
It just keeps haunting me. Keep thinking about what excuse i should come up with not attending. I have to lie to everyone around me, including my closest. D said I can't face it cos' I am not over it yet. That's not true. Just that I am not comfortable with the fact that someone taking a vow, promising to be with another person together forever. Yet, the person doesn't mean it. Smiling, laughing and cheering for the rest of the world but himself. I don't want to be part of it, faking it together with him. Why? Why we need to do that? Why am I forced to do that?
Friday, October 17, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
You are my person
One of the many reasons I am addicted to Grey's is the friendship between Meredith and Cristina. In the first season, Cristina revealed her secret preganancy to Meredith and told her that she was put as the emergency person. That's where "the person" came from.
And in the Fifth season, Meredith is struggling about moving in with Derek.
Meredith: If I'm going to do this, and be whole and healthy and be a warm, gooey person who lives with a boy... then I need you on board. I need you to cheer me on. Because you're the only one who knows me. Darkly. Really knows me. I need you to pretend that I can do this even if you don't believe. Because if you abandon me now, I will never make it, and I will never get my happy ending and that's just...life.
Cristina: Mer, why do you care what I think?
Meredith: Because you're my person!
Lucky to have found my person away from home.
And in the Fifth season, Meredith is struggling about moving in with Derek.
Meredith: If I'm going to do this, and be whole and healthy and be a warm, gooey person who lives with a boy... then I need you on board. I need you to cheer me on. Because you're the only one who knows me. Darkly. Really knows me. I need you to pretend that I can do this even if you don't believe. Because if you abandon me now, I will never make it, and I will never get my happy ending and that's just...life.
Cristina: Mer, why do you care what I think?
Meredith: Because you're my person!
Lucky to have found my person away from home.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Copybook
I just went through some wedding pictures of an old friend from Singapore. Shots after shots of a happy bride, making grant entrance, cutting cake, toasting, giving speech, laughing next to the groom... Many of my Singapore friends are now married. They should all have their beautiful shots from the wedding day.
But why all seem to be in the same mode?
Like Lisa said, people out there are writing copybook, it must start with capital letter A and ended with Z. Why bother to composite anything unique?
But why all seem to be in the same mode?
Like Lisa said, people out there are writing copybook, it must start with capital letter A and ended with Z. Why bother to composite anything unique?
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I had my Singapore outing for 7 days.
Spent some quality time with my parents. Had a good chat over brunch with 5pf, catching up on work and play.
I hate the fact that I didn't have sufficient alone time to sort things out (the only achievement was the 3 hours on flight, reading paper, book and working on my saving plan). It has been very stressful at work since the beginning of September. Very uncertain.
May be I will spend the coming few "parent-free" days to sit and think.
Spent some quality time with my parents. Had a good chat over brunch with 5pf, catching up on work and play.
I hate the fact that I didn't have sufficient alone time to sort things out (the only achievement was the 3 hours on flight, reading paper, book and working on my saving plan). It has been very stressful at work since the beginning of September. Very uncertain.
May be I will spend the coming few "parent-free" days to sit and think.
After Singapore trip...
I ask myself to save for the rainy days.
Dine out less and drink less is essential.
Dine out less and drink less is essential.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
As simple as that...
Friday, September 26, 2008
沒結果
鬧哄的約會告終 感覺驟變空
空似是街邊的風 凍或還是痛
擁抱著晚風 怎算是抱擁
不過又心中洶湧 你臂胳 你面容 你在情動
在這夜多麼的想你 明明明白不應再想起
愛吧 就來愛愛我吧 用我一晚自尊去換你
或許我是野花 偏你是野草
怎再又裝作不知道 你亂懷亂抱
知道又怎麼 你一笑我便醉倒
不要又心中洶湧 你眼眸你熱唇 你是情做
by 林憶蓮
2008, I am 31, single.
On a random day, I pick this old song from my ipod and is stunned...
A song written 16 years ago, listening to it today, I am hitted by every single words in the lyric.
空似是街邊的風 凍或還是痛
擁抱著晚風 怎算是抱擁
不過又心中洶湧 你臂胳 你面容 你在情動
在這夜多麼的想你 明明明白不應再想起
愛吧 就來愛愛我吧 用我一晚自尊去換你
或許我是野花 偏你是野草
怎再又裝作不知道 你亂懷亂抱
知道又怎麼 你一笑我便醉倒
不要又心中洶湧 你眼眸你熱唇 你是情做
by 林憶蓮
2008, I am 31, single.
On a random day, I pick this old song from my ipod and is stunned...
A song written 16 years ago, listening to it today, I am hitted by every single words in the lyric.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
500 hits
Stolen hours in the middle of the night. Dead slience.
Counting cash notes hidden under the pillow (left over EUR & GBP from trip), reviewing the account statements and registering outstanding debt from people, that's what a single old woman does on a sleepless night.
Lou and Andy
2 characters who I used to feel nonsense yet now fall in love with. A beliver of friendship, I am impressed by one who takes care of a friend selflessly. Even though it is just a character on TV.
http://www.lou-and-andy.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lou_and_Andy
Counting cash notes hidden under the pillow (left over EUR & GBP from trip), reviewing the account statements and registering outstanding debt from people, that's what a single old woman does on a sleepless night.
Lou and Andy
2 characters who I used to feel nonsense yet now fall in love with. A beliver of friendship, I am impressed by one who takes care of a friend selflessly. Even though it is just a character on TV.
http://www.lou-and-andy.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lou_and_Andy
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
firework
was talking to my married girl friends about the crush...
they hold a totally different prospective.
i kept having internal conversation with myself while talking to them. Firework or not? What do I want? Me, I know better. At this point, I am not brave enough for another spectacular firework. I want something that last.
Turning 30's... bloody hell...
I know exactly what i am doing and I prefer a friendship much more than just a spike in life. Even he hinted again and so what.
they hold a totally different prospective.
i kept having internal conversation with myself while talking to them. Firework or not? What do I want? Me, I know better. At this point, I am not brave enough for another spectacular firework. I want something that last.
Turning 30's... bloody hell...
I know exactly what i am doing and I prefer a friendship much more than just a spike in life. Even he hinted again and so what.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Busy Bee
Too many things to do, too little time to think, in turn, I have too little output for the blog.
Recent projects for me are to lose weight (I am not talking only, but aim at workout four times a week) and to prepare for trip to Lisbon and London.
I'd like to write about the summer, the Olympics, the Sunday mission, the primary school mates encounter, etc... I will try to take some "time out" and allow myself to think.
Recent projects for me are to lose weight (I am not talking only, but aim at workout four times a week) and to prepare for trip to Lisbon and London.
I'd like to write about the summer, the Olympics, the Sunday mission, the primary school mates encounter, etc... I will try to take some "time out" and allow myself to think.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Typhoon No.8
Wind fall holiday came just like a lottery. Since it was not a hard earnt holiday, the time was burnt aimlessly.
Served on the web, played with Wii fit for 45 mins, organised my itunes, created my "workout" playlist, watched 2nd half of "21"...
Served on the web, played with Wii fit for 45 mins, organised my itunes, created my "workout" playlist, watched 2nd half of "21"...
Friday, August 01, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Did it once, and now twice
Because of one comment by D, I went on diet in 2005 November. I got rid of 4Kg. I gained them back in the course of one year.
I let go in 2007. And now, I have to take the consequence.
2008, no D by my side, I decided, it's time for me to do it again.
I let go in 2007. And now, I have to take the consequence.
2008, no D by my side, I decided, it's time for me to do it again.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
First time in 3 years
For 3 hours, we sat at Redmoon, chating over 2 sparkling and 2 single whisky on rocks.
First time in 3 years we had such long talk. It was light hearted and fun.
First time in 3 years, we were no longer hotelier and guest, we are friends.
One thing didn't change is, it is enjoyable looking at his handsome face.
First time in 3 years we had such long talk. It was light hearted and fun.
First time in 3 years, we were no longer hotelier and guest, we are friends.
One thing didn't change is, it is enjoyable looking at his handsome face.
Solo walk home from Sunday Yoga
The walk home after my Sunday yoga is truely therapeutic. My body was well sweated and stretched at the session. My mind was calm and clear. Listening to my favourite tunes, I enjoyed the little 15 minutes walk home. Daydreaming. Vistualising my favourite moments of the past week. That's a private little place I found after moving back home.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
3rd round at 5 Bowen Road
Daniel frowned when I reached. Well, he did it as he knew he was getting the girls attention. He was excited about seeing me. But today, there were too many people in the room. The attention was diverted.
Sunny was a bit blue today. We were guessing it was about Henry's departure. And I was surprised by learning that Sunny is actually much older than he appears.
Pheonix lowered his head while I was sitting in front of him. He petted me when I looked away. Then I realise, my presence meant something to him.
Henry looked very sharp today. May be he is getting ready to stand on his own, leaving the big warm family.
Sunny was a bit blue today. We were guessing it was about Henry's departure. And I was surprised by learning that Sunny is actually much older than he appears.
Pheonix lowered his head while I was sitting in front of him. He petted me when I looked away. Then I realise, my presence meant something to him.
Henry looked very sharp today. May be he is getting ready to stand on his own, leaving the big warm family.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
by his side
Death seems remote but near.
I don't know how to react when I was told by a good friend about his loss. Hope a box of hand delivered pastries could offer a little support to the grief.
He told me, the box was opened at the end of the family dinner. The muffins, danishes, croissants and scones were shared among the family. And their breakfasts of the next morning were then well taken care of.
I smiled.
I don't know how to react when I was told by a good friend about his loss. Hope a box of hand delivered pastries could offer a little support to the grief.
He told me, the box was opened at the end of the family dinner. The muffins, danishes, croissants and scones were shared among the family. And their breakfasts of the next morning were then well taken care of.
I smiled.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Some more about new friends
This time, I spent more time with Chuk Nam, Abraham and Wallace. Of course, I have not forgotten Sunny and Daniel.
Chuk Nam is emotional and wants to be served. He pays attention to our talking at the table and easily gets agitated he was th subject of discussion.
Abraham is the little one yet smart. He is not acting like a gentleman when eating his lunch. Shake head...
Laughing with head falling behind... over very simple jokes... or funny gestures... gegegegege...
Chuk Nam is emotional and wants to be served. He pays attention to our talking at the table and easily gets agitated he was th subject of discussion.
Abraham is the little one yet smart. He is not acting like a gentleman when eating his lunch. Shake head...
Laughing with head falling behind... over very simple jokes... or funny gestures... gegegegege...
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
12 new friends
Last Sunday, I met them at Bowen Rd, Central.
It was full of laughter through out the 4 hours encounter. I could only recalled a few names, Sunny, Daniel, Jed, Justin, Lindsey (the only gal), Tobias, Phonix... I will get to know them better next Sunday.
Sunny has small eyes like me. He is a car lover. He is quiet yet very active.
Daniel has watery eyes and beautiful eye brows. His eyes could talk. When he looked at him, my heart just melt.
Lindsey is a shy girl. She knows people are paying attention to her even when her head down, reading her book quietly at the corner.
Tobias is a smart boy. A typical attention seeker. Whoever new came in, he ran across and give the person a big warm hug.
Justin knows very well what he wants and doesn't want. Very straight forward.
Jed is another quiet character. He sat there watching most of the time. I won't forget the smile on his face when I passed by him.
Knowing these new friends gives me new prospective to life.
It was full of laughter through out the 4 hours encounter. I could only recalled a few names, Sunny, Daniel, Jed, Justin, Lindsey (the only gal), Tobias, Phonix... I will get to know them better next Sunday.
Sunny has small eyes like me. He is a car lover. He is quiet yet very active.
Daniel has watery eyes and beautiful eye brows. His eyes could talk. When he looked at him, my heart just melt.
Lindsey is a shy girl. She knows people are paying attention to her even when her head down, reading her book quietly at the corner.
Tobias is a smart boy. A typical attention seeker. Whoever new came in, he ran across and give the person a big warm hug.
Justin knows very well what he wants and doesn't want. Very straight forward.
Jed is another quiet character. He sat there watching most of the time. I won't forget the smile on his face when I passed by him.
Knowing these new friends gives me new prospective to life.
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