Repeat and Repeat... Part II

從來不相信我的世界可以有多完美　痛苦寂寞還有一些疲憊
不允許他人隨意進入我的零度空間　寧願孤獨懶得再去想誰

走出零度空間終於一切分裂　就算愛的很累我卻不會後悔　
放下所有防備一切都無所謂　逃出黑暗世界開始新的明天

零 by 柯有倫

孤獨 沉澱 逃避 寂寞

"喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻但不能喜歡 太多"
"終於有機會讓自己再沉澱"
"我需要休息 我需要安靜的舉行我需要逃避 攤開你的手讓我死在你懷裏"
"離開你的我不論過多久還是會寂寞"

All lyrics by 陳綺貞

Repeat and Repeat... Part I

能成為密友　大概總帶著愛
但做對好兄弟　又如此相愛　旁人會說不該
忘形時搭膊　自有一面退開　　　
暗裡很享受　卻怕講出來
兩眼即使　移開轉開　心裡面也知　這是愛

(勞斯．萊斯 by 何韻詩)

New Goal in Life

Be a healthy, fit, glowing and happy me.
Watch my diet, do plenty of exercise, wake up/ go to bed early!

Silence

Moments in life are like movie scenes. Sometimes, you know what will come up in the next, but sometimes don't. For the unknown future, we better keep quiet. "Saying nothing...... sometimes say the most."

My sixth sense told me, thing cannot be forced through this time. Let it happens if it ought to happen. If it doesn't, it is meant to be. Enjoy the moment of silence when the clock stopped ticking.

"Silence is as deep as eternity, speech, shallow as time."

Ipod is gone. sob sob~

Somewhere only we know

Everyone has their stories at some places. Every place has stories of someone.

One of mine happened in Boston.

九份

I wonder if I am a full time tourist, part time bank officer or the other way round. Anyhow, I have not much to complain about life in Taipei.

Hillside teahouse is one of the places I have been longing to visit. I went to one at 九份 yesterday. Although the weather is not fabulous, the mood is good.

"不願眼睜睜的看你　走出我的生活"
陳綺貞-華麗的冒險

Do I have a choice? Yes, have my eyes closed.

一杯茶餐廳熱奶茶可以令人好很感動. 多謝波記!

Longing for weekend

The anxiety for weekend has never been stronger.

7:00 pm, Friday, I am a freeman. I am myself, no longer the slave at work.

Going forward is the 2 and 1/2 days I earned from the five days of "hard work". Of course, the money as well. Now, I unchain myself from the chair in front of my laptop and desk, and live my real life.

At Mint, I passed out for a while, not because of alcohol, but my "daydream". I was reminded by the lighting, the music, the movement of the people of my days in Singapore, at Zouk, at Attica too, at Mohamed Sultan, at Indo Chine.... I miss the crowd in Singapore, I seemed to see you all dancing out there... My buddies, my teddy boys... and strangers somemore... (Sorry my Singish slipped)... I was sad for a moment, yet I recovered from dancing along the music. I am glad that I have you all in my Singapore days...

I am doing fine in Taipei. I hope you do too...

19th Sept + 1 mth = 19th Oct

Target: reduce 4kg.
Method: any possible ones.

Looking forward to the day..... cos' I am really serious about it.

只是曾經擁有, 才會失去......
為何只哀悼失去的, 不興幸擁有過?

Somehow I have forgotten the meaning of life for a while and kept questioning myself why am I living? One day in Tokyo, I saw a blind when crossing the road and was enlightened. Living life is about experience with our five senses. Yes, enjoy life is that simple.

東京後記

This was the second visit of the year. As planned, my focus was more on experiencing the city than shopping. Although under strict self control, I have bought 1 jacket, 2 cardigans, 1 top, 1 camera and a few bottles of cosmetic (which all cannot be avoided). To conclude the trip, I have a few points to make as below: -

• It was a "detox" trip as I 1) screamed my lung out at Yomiuri Land (rollercosters and freefalls) which allow me to let out all my suppressed emotion; 2) rejuvenated myself in hotspring at Hakone (5 different pools); 3) shared my frustrations with my buddy and sought out my short term goal at this stage of life.
• Things that I hate about Tokyo are 1) inefficient Imigration counters for Foreigners (stood in line for 1and1/2 hour); 2) expensive local transportation; 3) the consequence of (2), is I have to walk a lot.
• White peach smelt so sweet.
• Time flies. The listener of my complaints about life has known me for nine years... didn't realise until we counted.

Life would not be as fun without friends, coffee and cigarettes......

The sisterhood of the travelling pants

Another good movie discovered from the on-flight movie (after "Music from another room").

"The sisterhood of the travelling pants" is about four teenagers who are good friends. Before they went abroad for their own summer vacations, they had found a pair of magic jeans which surprisingly fitted in all four of them (well, don't argue but listen). So, they decided to make a pact over the jeans and passed it around together with journals by express mail while travelling.

The jeans represented the bond among the four friends. It is a celebration of friendship and sisterhood! The screenplay was written by Delia Ephron. http://sisterhoodofthetravelingpants.warnerbros.com/about.html

Here's to my sisters, Carmen, Michelle, Lisa, Miranda and Sarah. I love you all. It is a magic to have you in my life. I trust that our friendship, sisterhood and love keep us together, no matter how far we travel in different paths.

Inspiration over a cup of mocha

I always wanted to visit "台北之家" as I have passed by in car for so many times. Finally, I was there this Sunday. The first thing I did was browsing in "誠品". There are quality collection of video (not the 3 for TWD199 type), which I appreciated. The store is just like the magnified version of the tiny video corner at the "誠品敦南店". It is inspiring! I left the store with three movies which I have been wanting to watch.

中毒 (Korean)
戀戀風塵 (Taiwanese)
春去春又來 (Korean)

I was satisfied as I have never imagine to get all three from the same place.

After shopping, I sat myself down at the alfresco cafe on the ground floor of the building. The weather was just nice to sit outdoor, not too hot. I ordered a mocha and nothing else, cos' i have got only enough for a drink. Took out my book and started reading... All of a sudden, I was inspired to write. So I took a pamphlet picked up earlier outside the movie theatre and started writing.

It is about romantic love. After twenty odd years, I thought I understand it, but actually not.

Being a piscesian, I am chasing after "perfect love". But the idea seems to make me sad more than anything. Should I assume "perfect love" equals to happiness? Should "perfect love" equals to "forever"? May be I was wrong.

Wait, who defined "perfect love"? Is it told in fairy tale, movies or TV series? Is it sterotyped by people in the society? Is it only confined to mutual emotional exchange? Is it true that only long lasting relationship means perfect love? How about love at first sight, but not long lasting? Well, there are "Romeo and Juliet" and "梁祝"?

Any reference book available in library? May be only the person in a "perfect love" knows what is "perfect love". I won't give up searching...

台北之家

Good night sleep...

I had a good rest over the weekend and went to bed before 12 last night. When I woke up this morning, I felt energetic and refreshed to go to work. Most importantly, I felt peace and calm at heart.

I felt lighter and much less frustrated. That might be because I have something to look forward to this weekend.

Today Joint Horoscopes of Pisces and Scorpio

"Decisions might be crazy-making right now, especially if you're unable to get in touch with each other. Communication might have more fizzle than sizzle, particularly if neither of you is being especially proactive about discussing the logistics of a big decision that involves you both. Don't delay this any longer, or these minor snags could turn into some pretty big snarls. Once you get all the plans in place, the pieces will start to snap together and form quite a pretty picture. So get moving already!"

Remark: I was shocked when I read the paragraph. How do they know all these? Well, but the story has ended. Nowhere to move.

Here I am again soon...

Hello Tokyo!