It just keeps haunting me. Keep thinking about what excuse i should come up with not attending. I have to lie to everyone around me, including my closest. D said I can't face it cos' I am not over it yet. That's not true. Just that I am not comfortable with the fact that someone taking a vow, promising to be with another person together forever. Yet, the person doesn't mean it. Smiling, laughing and cheering for the rest of the world but himself. I don't want to be part of it, faking it together with him. Why? Why we need to do that? Why am I forced to do that?