19th Sept + 1 mth = 19th Oct

Target: reduce 4kg.
Method: any possible ones.

Looking forward to the day..... cos' I am really serious about it.

只是曾經擁有, 才會失去......
為何只哀悼失去的, 不興幸擁有過?

Somehow I have forgotten the meaning of life for a while and kept questioning myself why am I living? One day in Tokyo, I saw a blind when crossing the road and was enlightened. Living life is about experience with our five senses. Yes, enjoy life is that simple.

東京後記

This was the second visit of the year. As planned, my focus was more on experiencing the city than shopping. Although under strict self control, I have bought 1 jacket, 2 cardigans, 1 top, 1 camera and a few bottles of cosmetic (which all cannot be avoided). To conclude the trip, I have a few points to make as below: -

• It was a "detox" trip as I 1) screamed my lung out at Yomiuri Land (rollercosters and freefalls) which allow me to let out all my suppressed emotion; 2) rejuvenated myself in hotspring at Hakone (5 different pools); 3) shared my frustrations with my buddy and sought out my short term goal at this stage of life.
• Things that I hate about Tokyo are 1) inefficient Imigration counters for Foreigners (stood in line for 1and1/2 hour); 2) expensive local transportation; 3) the consequence of (2), is I have to walk a lot.
• White peach smelt so sweet.
• Time flies. The listener of my complaints about life has known me for nine years... didn't realise until we counted.

Life would not be as fun without friends, coffee and cigarettes......

The sisterhood of the travelling pants

Another good movie discovered from the on-flight movie (after "Music from another room").

"The sisterhood of the travelling pants" is about four teenagers who are good friends. Before they went abroad for their own summer vacations, they had found a pair of magic jeans which surprisingly fitted in all four of them (well, don't argue but listen). So, they decided to make a pact over the jeans and passed it around together with journals by express mail while travelling.

The jeans represented the bond among the four friends. It is a celebration of friendship and sisterhood! The screenplay was written by Delia Ephron. http://sisterhoodofthetravelingpants.warnerbros.com/about.html

Here's to my sisters, Carmen, Michelle, Lisa, Miranda and Sarah. I love you all. It is a magic to have you in my life. I trust that our friendship, sisterhood and love keep us together, no matter how far we travel in different paths.

Inspiration over a cup of mocha

I always wanted to visit "台北之家" as I have passed by in car for so many times. Finally, I was there this Sunday. The first thing I did was browsing in "誠品". There are quality collection of video (not the 3 for TWD199 type), which I appreciated. The store is just like the magnified version of the tiny video corner at the "誠品敦南店". It is inspiring! I left the store with three movies which I have been wanting to watch.

中毒 (Korean)
戀戀風塵 (Taiwanese)
春去春又來 (Korean)

I was satisfied as I have never imagine to get all three from the same place.

After shopping, I sat myself down at the alfresco cafe on the ground floor of the building. The weather was just nice to sit outdoor, not too hot. I ordered a mocha and nothing else, cos' i have got only enough for a drink. Took out my book and started reading... All of a sudden, I was inspired to write. So I took a pamphlet picked up earlier outside the movie theatre and started writing.

It is about romantic love. After twenty odd years, I thought I understand it, but actually not.

Being a piscesian, I am chasing after "perfect love". But the idea seems to make me sad more than anything. Should I assume "perfect love" equals to happiness? Should "perfect love" equals to "forever"? May be I was wrong.

Wait, who defined "perfect love"? Is it told in fairy tale, movies or TV series? Is it sterotyped by people in the society? Is it only confined to mutual emotional exchange? Is it true that only long lasting relationship means perfect love? How about love at first sight, but not long lasting? Well, there are "Romeo and Juliet" and "梁祝"?

Any reference book available in library? May be only the person in a "perfect love" knows what is "perfect love". I won't give up searching...

台北之家

Good night sleep...

I had a good rest over the weekend and went to bed before 12 last night. When I woke up this morning, I felt energetic and refreshed to go to work. Most importantly, I felt peace and calm at heart.

I felt lighter and much less frustrated. That might be because I have something to look forward to this weekend.

Today Joint Horoscopes of Pisces and Scorpio

"Decisions might be crazy-making right now, especially if you're unable to get in touch with each other. Communication might have more fizzle than sizzle, particularly if neither of you is being especially proactive about discussing the logistics of a big decision that involves you both. Don't delay this any longer, or these minor snags could turn into some pretty big snarls. Once you get all the plans in place, the pieces will start to snap together and form quite a pretty picture. So get moving already!"

Remark: I was shocked when I read the paragraph. How do they know all these? Well, but the story has ended. Nowhere to move.

Here I am again soon...

Hello Tokyo!

I wonder...

why am i here in Taipei?
why am i dealing with meanless tasks each day?
why am i talking to ppl who are not really interesting?
why the regular warm hearted MSN conversations have been terminated?
why would friend become stranger?
why thing used to be beautiful turned sour?
why am i penalised for not being in Singapore?
why i don't want to move back to Hong Kong?
why i am missing someone who didn't care about me?
why are there so many typhoon in Taiwan?
why...

Remember this!

阿水2.0 says:
so, let's not think it is sth bad...
*~Michelle~* says:
as i've always said..
*~Michelle~* says:
it's always during the midst of chasing it that u think is the best thing tat cld happen to u
阿水2.0 says:
we just stopped at the right time when everything for each other are so beautiful
*~Michelle~* says:
but when u get it..it may be otherwise

Today is not my day... I ll sleep early

sigh...

For record, just a few minutes ago, my heart was stabbed.
You've got it.

I go to bed now.

Pisces wisdom

Conversation between two pisceans last night

Pisces A says:
We pisces are doomed
Pisces B says:
How come?
Pisces A says:
Life seems to be hopeless. Mistake kept repeating itself. Doomed, doomed, doomed...
Pisces B says:
No, no, I don't see it this way. If my day was not a good one, I went to bed earlier and hoped tomorrow would be a better day. If next day turned out not a good one, then I slept earlier..........................

通告

1. 阿水寶寶 is born today (6th Sept). He is my blog pet.

2. "Rainbow Concoction" is added to my favourite link.

Thank you for your attention.

I've got a friend - 5pf

The feeling sucks when one "swallows" her tears. Bitter, not a tiny tinge of sweetness. That is the problem of being a grown up. I can't recall when "crying out loud with tears" was put under the family of suppression.

When my eyes were burning, I picked up my phone, a call away, I was connected to my very own "Angel Hotline" (Not related to any Adult Hotline business).

Then, everything seems right again under the big blue sky. Let's me cheers by singing this to 5pf

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

You've got a friend Lyrics by Carole King

Thanks for the needle. Time for hard reboot.

My bubble burst. I asked for the needle as I can't allow it to grow any bigger. It was known to be imaginery and was simply meaningless. I have to stop indulging in an unrealistic world, built by myself. It is totally unfair to all parties involved.

Things used to be "meaningful" are not important anymore. Spiritual belief was just a slogans. Pure physical pleasure was the actual agenda.

Meaningless things can be left behind. Press the button for hard reboot, delete memories and restore the system back to normal. Reborn into a new me tomorrow, a better one.

Wait, thanks for everything before I forget.

A hard reboot is a full restore of a handheld computer (or PDA) to its factory settings. It entails deleting all information stored in the handheld. This is essentially the same as reformatting a hard drive. A hard reboot may become necessary from time to time on a PDA which has too many unreliable programs on it, thus restoring integrity to the system. It should be used with caution, as it destroys all data stored in the unit. (Sourced from http://www.fact-index.com/)

If I have three wishes, I wish...

to become transparent and be able to move to anywhere
to swallow a "forget and forgive" pill
to be happy everafter

Where is my fairy god mother?