Oscar

There goes another round of Oscar. Since high school, I always has this weird thought of taking day off on Oscar day so that I could watch it live. And this thought still goes on today. But it never realise.

Thanks to internet, I can now watch the red carpet without setting my VCR recorder for 7am recording! Sarah Jessica Parker is too thin.

Overall position 2671

In the recent 10K run, one thing I am proud of is my power songs playlist!! I have tailor-made my very own power songs playlist with good thoughts, taking into consideration my foreseen conditions in each stage of the run.

Here are the songs in sequence. Total playlist time 1:16:26.

1. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas (hike up to get into the momentum)
2. My Sharona - The Knack (bring higher)
3. Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake
4. Shut up and let me go - The Ting Tings (need female vocal to balance out)
5. Don't stop til you get enough - MJ
6. 4 Minutes - Madonna
7. Everybody's Changing - Keane (this is the worst point through out)
8. Maneater - Nelly Furtado
9. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas (yes, it's a repeat, cos' that's the half way point)
10. Check it on - Beyonce
11. Love Sex Magic - Ciara/ Justin Timberlake
12. Cinderella - Rihanna
13. Nobody - Wonder Girls (Korean, a cute song)
14. Let's get retarded - Black Eyed Peas (at this stage, my legs are retarded)
15. Breathe - Blu Cantrell (Nothing else can be done but breathe)
16. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
17. Disturbia - Rihanna
18. Feel - Robbie William (at this point, we need a slow but strong song as I should be running towards the finishing line)
19. Where is the Love - Black Eyed Peas (a treat, right 5pf?)

I listen to the playlist again for twice after the run and the tune just reminded me about the bitter sweet of the run. It is motivating, seriously! That's what I need to pick myself up when facing difficulties in all aspects of life.

1:08:22, avg speed 5:53/Km

At one point, I'd like to challenge 58mins for this 10K. At the end, I finished 10 mins +. Well, after today's run, I realised the weather and the route matters.

Along the Eastern Corridor, there are at least 3 big up slopes and plenty of uneven path. Of course, I should also blame myself for being lazy and not trained enough after New Year.

The feeling of running this 10K is special. I was a bit nervous before the run (unlike the Unicef one so carefree). It reminded me of my swimming days, being a competitive athlete. I enjoyed this feeling.

The run started at 5:15am. The speed was on average 5:10/ km for the first 3K. Afterwards, I felt very hot and wanted to slow down, yet I pushed myself to keep up the rhythm as I know it would harder to pick up if not. I tried to hydrate myself at the water stop at 5K. Feeling better after the turn heading back west. The slopes were really the killers. And I was dehydrated again at about 7K while the next water stop is at 8K.

When I saw the finishing line, I almost teared... as I am done with the challenge... and it was damn tough... The walk between the finishing line and Hun, I was zombie like. And Hun told me, I must be dreaming of still running when I napped at his as my legs were kicking.

33...

We have a very enjoyable evening together on my birthday. Hun, against all odds, put together a little birthday celebration for me. Everthing is just neat and sweet. The wine, the food, the present, the little card, the cake, the kisses and hugs.

Dear 5pf

Letter to 5pf in the middle of 25th Feb...

As you know very well, I have my blues during Christmas, getting better for CNY and even better for this Valentines day... and peak at bday...

One day before my bday... I am pleased to let you know, everything is gonna be perfect as I wish... as I am being well taken care of...

Thanks for being there for me as my guiding angel always...

birthday wish...

may be a pint of cookies and cream would not be a bad idea...
the 10K will consume the calorie gain.

Can't ask for more as things are just perfect... why whine?!?
Tomorrow will be a better day!

Birthday week kicks off from now.

都呼呼入睡了, 手還牽着。

Feb 14th, 2010 was our first Valentines Day.

Hun insisted he doesn't celebrate the day, while I happily passed my little gift to him. Glad that we found harmony in our variance.

It was a comfortable and lovely evening like any other one we've spent together.

Chinese New Year Eve

Counting down to the new year.

This moment, I am contented. I have caught up with my friends and will spend the year end with family, while my hun is enjoying himself with his close ones as well.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. It is the new year and St. Valentines day and I am going to spend this special day with hun.

It's C day tomorrow. I have little expectation.
As long as there is a salary raise.

Silence

In the silence, I am listening to every beat of my heart.
Each becomes clearer.

In the silence, I am listening to my head.
There is no hatred but only bitterness.

In the silence, I hear nothing else.

是不是 在一起就好了？

這天我的話沒有太多。因為一切都變得沒意義。
我要的只是情人早上醒來的一個吻。我以為這是個簡單的要求。

如果連做這個都嫌浪費精神時間, 不如把我的心挖出來, 放進冰箱裡算了。

Feb Fab

My favourite month of the year. Chinese new year, Valentines day, birthday and spring~

Things happened for a reason...
I get to believe.

Grocery bag

I always enjoy shopping at supermarket. It's considered as a meditation to the busy city life
And now, having half home-cooked dinner for two, grocery shopping gives an extra meaning to me.
Smile ~

I am back

2010 is going to be a good year!

being honest

in practice... and progressing well.

We

It could be frustrated when one encounters a low tide in life. Nevertheless, one finds comfort in having someone by your side, listening with feedbacks...

At the end of the day, having a companion makes a different. I am glad that I found mine.

Sleepless in Seattle

I have watched the movie for over 20 times, on laser disc, dvd, Pearl, HBO or even plane. Last week, it was my first time sitting through over half of the movie with my back facing the screen.

Planning for our next holiday

The pleasure of the 5 days 4 nights Bali holiday begins!

After missing hun for 21 days, we reunited.
I stood there at the street, awaiting for his arrival. The feeling was just beyond words when I saw him getting out of the car and approaching me. That one kiss meant everything to me. Hun is back!

reminiscence (new vocab taught by steph)

was talking to hun over the phone about fetching him from airport express. afterwards, while imagining i am going to help hun with the luggage, a hidden memory was recalled...

back in time, hun met me at Euston!? and sent me off to Heathrow. i could still recall his help with the heavy suitcase up and down the staircases...

have been taken good care of since back then...

5pf's D said :

well, you're wearing a mask when you don't say what you think everytime

New motto

Be unselfish.
Be attentive.
Be humble.

2010 繼續

On new year eve of 2009, I blogged : The most important thing to me is I should continue my journey by listening to my heart. I am not a material girl, I am a dreamy romantic pisces.


On the first day of 2010, I'd like to continue my journey by listening to my heart. I am still a dreamy romantic pisces. This year, I am lucky to have another romantic pisces to share my journey with.

我們的世界和平...

an addition to the list

2010

To have a fresh start, I have listed the following resolutions for the coming year.

1. Do more exercise - 3 times a week, including PE lesson.
2. Drink less coffee (hopefully down to one a day), more water (mineral water).
3. Keep up with the daily intake of vitamins and nutrients.
4. Be direct and open about my feelings (with Hun) - messages should be related at the right time and right manner.
5. Explore 3 new destinations which I have never been... (ideally with hun).
6. Be happy!

Dec 28th

Everything is just not the same without Little Mr. Chatterbox.

Another piece of advice

5pf says:
do what u feel like
if u hv to hold back..something's wrong
be urself..that's the objective of ur r/s

About 三ニ行館

走進戶外的温泉, 當涼風吹在手臂上才醒覺當時只有十ニ,三度。三步兩腳跳進去泡湯. 四十ニ度的泉溫, 讓我沉重的頭腦都放鬆。。。
從一個泉跳到另一個, 浸了十多分鐘, 是時候cooldown 一下。 帶著書跟咖啡, 走到resting area坐坐, 望出外面的風景, 是北投山腳温泉水流, 水流冒着白煙, 襯着青綠色的背景, 簡直令人心曠神怡。 涼風再吹在浸過溫泉後的身上... 感覺體內那股熱力抵擋了外來的寒冷, 十分舒暢。那天整個三ニ行館都很寧靜, 客人不超過三四個。
來回再探各個温泉兩次, 碧、玉、晶三泉，再加上北投原有的白磺泉, 肚了有點餓了。小息後, 慢慢梳洗。離開前還拍了幾拍。

the little red book

It's gonna be a record of us.
I'll record every happy moment we shared in the book.

Christmas eve 2009

Staying home for a slient night.
Tears dropping as I miss my hun so much...

Solo

It was an enjoyable day alone in Taipei. Not much was done, but plenty of room to think and meditate. I had very good conversations to myself about life, love and work.

@ Taipei

I was walking along the old neighbourhood. I thought, time flies and thing changes. I have moved on to a new stage of life. I smiled while walking along the familar, because I know now someone in the other side of the world is thinking about me.

Tonight was just perfect... everything came at the best timing.
Even better than planned...

We are happy only if I am happy!?
I am happy only if we are happy...

Something to remember the moment we share

while crossing the road, I told 5pf about a song I like. I couldn't recall the song's name, nor to repeat her the melody... but she knew it.

At The Heeren HMV, we shared this song at the listening area...

About glasses

Very elegent and delicate Riedel wine glasses - Sommelier black tie burgundy grand cru.

After sending all the guests away, it's our little quiet time finally. Sitting at our usual spot, we appreciated our stolen hours over smoke, drink and chat.

I love the little wine charms which are nicely made. Christmas boot is hun's and Holly is mine.

Less greed, life would be happier...

Cortado, skyline and firework

Christmas Celebration

Hun is watching his football right now and I am sitting by his side.

We had a quiet but wonderful christmas celebration today. From early morning, we hung around as we like without time constraint. we were wandering here and there, getting this and that. the firework was the highlight of the night.

We had lots of fun just by ourselves... just us, not even music at the background...

I am looking forward to the little Christmas celebration with Hun... plenty of things to be done.

I used to hate Christmas. There may be a change in 2009 cos' i have hun by my side...

Deep breathe, everything is going to be alright.
Christmas is coming soon, enjoy!

就是沉溺在這寂寞的感覺裡,
一個人坐在行人天橋腳,
暗黄色街燈底下, 零晨時分, 馬路還是車來車往。

血管裡流着足夠的酒精和尼古丁,
讓我獨個兒享受着,
陪着這寧靜有我最愛的音樂,
聽着熟識的旋律, 我的靈魂被帶回過去每一個深秋,
一陣涼風吹在臉上, 我慶幸淚不用流下來.

不敢說我充滿鍊歷, 過去的教我學會接受, 不再強求。

I wish the cloud could be cleared and the sun came out soon.

肉麻的對白, 還是留待見面時才說...

Waltz

The man takes the lead gently and the woman follows, step by step, turn after turn, a spin to add. Every moment is lovely and enjoyable. It would never work without one another and takes time and effort of both to make it perfect.

To do it beautifully, both try their best not to step onto each other's toe. Sometimes, things happen and the move of two doesn't synchronise. As long as both are willing to learn, understand, be persistence, one day, the dance would score 10.

Magic carpet ride

Before we returned to Earth, I was already wishing for our next magic carpet ride.

The ride began with a lousy breakfast at the ferry terminal. We were able to catch an earlier ferry than planned. Room was ready for check in upon our arrival. We dropped our baggages and moved on to our next stop.

Within walking distance, we reached the noodle place. After a light lunch, we walked hand in hand in and out of lanes, appreciating the patterned stone mosaic streets and the colonial Portuguese style architecture. The little walk up and down the slope was relaxing and pleasant. Then we visited the long waited ice cream store, yet it turned out to be over-rated by the tour guide (i.e. me).

After ice cream, we went casino hopping, MGM, Wynn, City of Dreams and Venetian. The total damage was upto 4 digits figures. At the end, I decided to buy my mate a drink at Bellini instead of having my chips sucked in by the sic-bao table. Meanwhile, our dopamine level reduced while chit chating about anything over drinks.

The night walk between Sands and MGM was refreshing and chilling. At MGM's Lion Bar, we lighted our cigar and sipped whisky. It was THE PLACE to go as it offered excellent live band, energetic ambience and crowd with people from all walks of life.

The next morning, we had a quick yet quality coffee at the poolside before our Michelin 3 star luncheon at Robuchon a Galera. We both (slightly) dressed up for the occassion. The fois gras appetizer, the black cod fish/ veal head, the caremal ice-cream were memorable. The sommelier was impressive (Thanks to Hun's imitation on "Christoph" checking our orders before serving the very same bottles of red and white). Overall, it was an enjoyable experience despite the waitress had forgotten our wine.

That's almost the end of the ride. For a soft landing, we headed home together and cooked a simple pasta (tomato smoked bacon penne). It was delicious and marked an end to the ride.

Our first trip

Officially, this is our first trip away from HK (Phuket doesn't count). I am very excited.

We had a candide conversation tonight. I learn to peel my layers down to the end... takes time for me to get use to it. Well, at least I feel we have taken a step closer...

5pf says:

when u're in a relationship
5pf says:
it's not juz abt laugh..smiles..hugs...
5pf says:
there're lots of tears...anger...frustration
5pf says:
to package it up

To be honest, I was quite stressful this morning. There were a lot in my mind. The only thing I could do was repeating my "to-do" list and then telling myself, everything is gonna be alright.

Not long after I settled at my office desk, I received a message. My guardian angel gave me a pad on the shoulder. I realised, I was not alone.

Someone is actually there, willing to walk the road with me. Holding my hand, even if it is sweaty.

Another quote

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.

~From the movie Annie

frozen moment

In the busy living room, I sat facing the glass window, appreciating the reflection of my dear busy preparing for dinner in the kitchen.

I felt quiet and contented.

me

Glad that I have met someone who accepts me, to be me, not anything else.

Looking through my eyes...

all i can say...

i am glad to have all my best friends by my side...


i could laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together.

Zombie

Sitting at IFC Crystal Jade, together with another 3 strangers at the table, I have ordered my all time favourite dry noodles with fried spring onion. I was reminded the taste of the Singapore solo days.

Then I wandered around LC and oliver's, just like a zombie. It was a good past time tho.

Time with hun is never enough...

Lucky - Jason Marz

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I hear your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
And though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see

Let the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

I'm Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Cashback

Ben Willis: Once upon a time, I wanted to know what love was. Love is
there if you want it to be. You just have to see that its wrapped
in beauty and hidden away in between the seconds of your life. If
you dont stop for a minute, you might miss it.

quote from Cashback

A perfect night

We sat by the window, appreciating the skyline of the city and chatting over a home made bombay gin and tonic. The tranquility of the night, the autumn wind and hun just formed a perfect picture. What else can I ask for?

divorce

the news was finally broken to me.

X is filing for divorce. I am sorry for him~

Ultimately

whatever bubble tea, more bubble, more tea is no longer important...
for long term, we will be back to basic, just green tea, no sugar, period.

at the end of the day, simplicity is the thing. nothing fancy anymore. natural and comfortable.

that's the motto of me and hun.

@ Mid Autumn

Autumn is my favourite season.

I can't be lighter then walking hand in hand with Hun, along the harbour front of Tsim Sha Tsui, appreciating the moon...

It's my turn finally and I believe, the best is yet to come~

Is it reality or a dream?

Here is a brand new angle: "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

想你

正如Carry所說, 他給我的浪漫, 讓我的靈魂離開了身體浮到半空望回地上的我。

我只管享受, 沒有其它了。

Part-time lovers, full-time friends

I would be ideal if he's mine...

"we"

Looks like someone has started thinking about "we"...
Initiating a list of our "next stop"sss... like Barcelona, Croacia, London, Bali, Taipei... and Singapore.

Yes, Singapore... He initiated, not me.

雙魚X2

The adventure begins... let me buckle up and get set...
Who knows where it will lead to, just enjoy the ride...

"The roads are always open. Keep running"

I am impressed by the efficient shipment. One very heart warming thing: the ipod is half charged when delievered. That means, the new owner can try on all functions without a second of delay.

很脆弱

好像從新學走路一樣, 每步都有點兒不肯定。
怕的是跌倒, 頭破血流,
要自已站起來, 很可憐。

幸好, 剛走過的一步給了我一點信心和勇氣,
我想我會向前走吧。。。

where i belonged...

Singapore and Taipei are my weak points...

When I am wore out... the most I miss is Singapore and Taipei... the people, the lifestyle, the food, the smell, the passerby...

went to Singapore for 3 times this year?... and time for Taipei...

I miss the moment, strolling along 忠孝, 敦南... miss the chaos, miss the disorder...
I am coming in December... I am coming...

Phoenix's farewell

Mixed feeling. I should be happy more than sad.
Phoenix will be flying to US with his new parents. There is a great life ahead of him and wish him all the best.

without reference

It happened, and there have been plenty of chances for the participants to back out gracefully. Well, seemingly no party wanted to withdraw at that moment.

Things changed since then.

Can our relationship be maintained? Advanced or deteriorated?

My Sister's Keeper

How would a sister not love a sister?

Even if it is gonna be painful, you will love hers as she is your best friend on earth in this life. You will be willing to do anything for her, just because.

我問...

究竟下一刻會發生甚麼呢?
期待九一一。

那麼遠...

只要心接近, 距離, 有關係嗎?

五辮花, 我也很渴望回來... 在椰樹下發我的白日夢...

Blame no one

should I be able to squeeze time for self reflection, I should be about to write. Just that I haven't put the effort of doing so yet.

It's about paying attention to my feeling

i realise another reason for lacking of blog entry...
I didn't pay much attention to my feeling.

When reflecting my mental state, I realise I am looking at the whole thing from a distance, which is interesting to know.

Someone kept sending mixed signals. Due to the inconsistency, I have also discounted the positive ones.

I wonder...

The biggest loser

I am happy because there is a break through in my weight level after a long plateau. My hard work counts.

My BMI was 17.7!!!

Well, better jog tomorrow as a new round of hot spring egg will be in production.

hung out with an old timer. both of us have been away from home for a good while. sitting next to each other we talked about north east south west, as if we were not apart for too long.

we went to lit class together back then, both of us have once written, and yet not back home.

it is sad to realise, the room for imagination, room to think, room for reflection has been killed back home. as if I step back to the concrete and can't affort to daydream anymore. i scream for a rescue, an escape...

at home, i have many roles to play and i have to be the big sister everybody look up to... i am back to monotone, colourless...

and daydream is me. and i can't do that anymore at home... i can't be myself!? or can i do something about it?

barely a date

It has been a long time I was asked to dinner by a guy.
I am happy!

Blog

Yes, when I was still in the air, I had plenty of ideas about updating my blog. And once I touched down on the land of HKSAR... the air pressure seemed to suppressed all of them. And they are now all gone.

I have Hong Kong done to me?

A pleasant surprise II

D is back in town this weekend, without advance noticed. We had drink+dinner+drink together today. I was so happy. I just enjoy the chit chat about everyday life and my view on things and of course some tears on him being a silly pig.

He is the best!

feeling a bit dizzy in the store, i pointed at this this and that to the sales girl.
i was brought to the fitting room... and tried on the items...

i heard myself saying to the sales girl, this one i want, and this, this and that...

i took my plastic out. At a swipe, there goes a week of salary...

i suspect, i was drugged and led to the store unconscious.

Sometimes, my anger ran up to my throat and I wanted to scold him. Screaming COWARD.

But then, I stoped and thought twice before I acted.

I swallowed the anger and moved on.

4am

I know I wont talk to you anymore. It's about defending my dignity.
But I have to confess the fact that, at 4am... under much alcohol influence,

I look at you in black and white.

I can't care less

Hey, I am living my life. What the hell!?!?
I run, I workout and I eat... I drink and I am trying to be slim.
Antiaging... stay young...
I hate my job but I need my salary. I love weekend but it is always too short.
I could never go to work on time, but I always stay overtime... breakeven for the bank
I need solo time, but I live with Mom... then what to do??
No more leather shoes or handbags... sorry to Lane Crawlford...
Many trips... congrats CX, Dragon Air and SQ.... seems not used to other airlines anymore...

No more bonus next year... still need to pay for my lean skin....

Mentor talks

I have two very meaningful talks with my mentors. One focuses on work and the other on life and relationship.

I am lucky to have two such generous mentors to give me guidiance.

... I wonder if he is going to disappear from my life like that for good?

Afterall, human being is no saint. The longer I see this world... the less I am shocked by any "abnormal" behavior of human being... no matter how discipline the person was in the past.

Well, the bottomline is be faithful to our conscious.

disappear

no matter one appears to be strong and confidence about oneself, one could be insecured at times. Someone deems to be important in one's life... disappear one day... one couldn't help but wonder where the hell did that someone has gone? and why is the reason for the disappearence.

While busy thinking of a possibly never answered question... one has neglected other important ones are actually right here.

Look no where, but now here.

Growing

The breeze was refreshing at 2am, especially after the rain. The clock ticked faster than usual. From application of Halal cert to ebay charges on toy bidding, from mail ordered bride to 30K gold rolex, this boy was so enthusiastic about sharing his stories of life.

I wished the Merlion water spouting would go on and no one was reminded about the time.

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I admit I was at one moment fragile. This was the Nth time passing the ECP. The green kept passing by my side and so did the laughters. Everytime, I moved on alone with courage, and this was no exception.

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With 5pf, I enjoyed being mischievous, to annoy her until she rolled eyes. I missed hearing her whining in 1 or 2 pitches higher, just like the old days.

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The unfinished business still left unfinished. May be we are just indifference to it and each other.

Sometimes living in a lie is better than facing the truth.

When I was walking to work today, I suddenly realised, my other half could be a person with potential but this potential not neccessarily be discovered before madly in love...

This should have been learnt decade ago... that's why I always say I am a slow learner...

Things that I miss from Taipei can't be "take-away".

The manicure by Wei Li, brunch at Diners, sushi meal at Mitsui, books browsing at Elite, deep fried "Tempura" at night market... etc...

I hope I have grown older and wiser. Instead of forcing thing happen, I'd chose to wait for it to happen. Everyone would be happier in this case.


I should rather think about printing my Mickey Mouse for Sunday morning. I have to show Phoenix the real Mickey Mouse... not Minnie.