Listen to my heart

Less than 20 mins to 2009.

A number of memorable things have happened to me in 2008. All in all, it was an interesting year. The road in front is not easy but yet I am full of faith. The most important thing to me is I should continue my journey by listening to my heart.

I am not a material girl, I am a dreamy romantic pisces.

Balance

I am giving it a try. Learn to love without love at first sight. Not sure if it's gonna work out. Give both him and myself a chance.

Plenty of daydream... to balance my mind. Forgive me, cos' I really need it.

D confessed about him spying and stalking on someone he admired.

I am just second to him in a different way, of course, harmless ways...

Just not keen to go to work

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

so romantic

that's life

if not the phone was by my side, i won't got the message. if not I got the message, i won't go out. And i won't be sent home by uncle...

smile.

seems that 2008 christmas is going to be a good one...

2:08 am. a bit tipsy...
i couldn't help to tell the person in the pix about my heart beat...
my honesty is appreciated.
ha...

New Year Resolution 2009 #1

loss 2kg or more by birthday.

妄想

好鬼死耐無試過個心跳得咁快。可能有十幾廿年吧！
喂, 真係好鬼難得咁興奮。青春真係無價。我響度懷疑某人根本係特登將張相舖比本小姐睇嘅。哈哈，似唔似「思覺失調」嗰d人，話新聞響度講緊佢呀。

我同自已講，肥同肚腩係唔可以再出現嘅！再唔做d嘢就真係死咗唔駛恨。。。

heart beat

In one evening, I had my heart beat fast twice. Second time beated 10 times faster and still beating fast now. OMG!

Chemistry Class

I was reading my book on the ferry to China. The paragraph about "Dopamine" caught my attention. I read repeatedly, it said " Basically, anything the brain perceives to be enjoyable will cause dopamine to lock onto brain cells and build a permanent memory trace of where pleasure comes from."

I am glad to know that at least I know the source of my urge.

- findings from wikipedia on Dopamine
Dopamine is commonly associated with the pleasure system of the brain, providing feelings of enjoyment and reinforcement to motivate a person proactively to perform certain activities. Dopamine is released by naturally rewarding experiences such as food, sex, drugs, and neutral stimuli that become associated with them.

It's complicated

There was no goodbye at the door. Never mention about our next encounter, as none of us knows what will happen next.

I wish, if there is a next, everything could be more simple and straight forward.

Blank

The clock is ticking... the world is turning...
In 1/10 sec, I passed out...

I have done a good job controlling my emotion through out these days. Yet, my true feeling is somehow confined. Is this the price of growing up?

Shall we dance

I had a few glasses over dinner. With a light hearted mood, I danced along with the host to Michael Buble. I, know nothing about dancing, just followed the lead and turn carefree. I was laughing and the audiance applaused.

Am I ready to let go of the control I am obssessed with and follow the lead?

Proof of Age

The colour of this bus ticket is fading, so is my memory. The typings from the vending machine could bearly be read... 16:14... 20AU... 90c...

Thought I was able to keep my memory by holding on to this tiny slip, yet I can't do much to avoid the image turn blurry. At the end, the tiny slip is just a waste when no more memory is attached to it.

May be this is the best way to set me free from clinging to the past.

Sleep walk

Not then, but now.


My memory is fading, probably because of age. I couldn't keep track of when exactly was the last time we met. Two or three years ago? No matter how hard I tried to search my files in my brain, I couldn't be sure about it.

It is just weird, we must wait even longer to see each other for the next time. Well, better than never... or may be never. Who knows?

And I rather stay in dream.